“in Jan 2021, when i originally made the song, i was not in a good mindset.
in August, i built off of it, adding a more positive verse to the end to signify the improvement of my perception :)

this song and animation is a huge vent that represents me getting over a big internal pain of mine- i spent a long time worrying that everyone secretly hated me. In fact every time i met someone new, i couldn’t help but think they hate me. it got so bad i couldnt tell if people were actually true friends, or just wanted fame out of me.
because of gaining internet popularity at a young age [13], people always held high expectations of my work. i had so much jealousy of those who i percieved as “better” than me.
on top of that, being young and popular online caused me to get manipulated easily. i did some genuinely awful things from that time of my life which is why i thought, “maybe part of me deserves to be hated by everyone”.

but, i made the positive part of the song, because I know who i am, someone who makes an effort to grow and improving as a person. i realize people are going to hate, judge, or misinterpret me and thats okay- yes ive got so many regrets, but the best thing to do is learn from them and help others. and i DO have friends who care for me, who don’t just treat me like im a status symbol. i DO have people who genuinely enjoy my art. and as long as at least some people are enjoying me and my work, i will keep on going with it. even if im outcast by some people, i’ll always have a place for something positive to keep me going, and that’s what matters."

~kittydog