verse
Not ready yet, not for you
Don't want to know my darkest lows
My blackest pitch, murder of crows
Feels far from home close to the veil
Goodbye mother's fairytale
When star-crossed lovers take their life
verse
Now where again, a harlequin
Kaleidoscope in spite of when
Top of the world to lowest worth
From blackest pearl to slow rebirths
chorus
Whatever doesn't make me stronger kills me
But it's gonna be a long year
'Til the hospital can find hope in me
Do I survive you, Astoria?
Do I survive you, Astoria?
verse
A fevered blur through names obscured
What's another bridge burned?
I'm on my own, you came alone
All dressed up in bad news
This would be the wrong move
Maybe we should leave soon
bridge
You can lay with me while you think of him
Drown our sorrows deep in each other's skin
I touch your face while I think of her
I won't raise my lips to the way we were
Bite my neck while you say his name
I will scratch your back to forget her face
Our regret tastes sweet through a soft liqueur
We can raise our lips to the way we were
verse
On a good day I'm the bad news
For the wrong girl with the right wounds
On a good day I'm the bad news
For the wrong girl with the right wounds
Hey, you ever just say f- it?
Maybe I'll drink this all away in buckets
Oh hey, might as well say f- it
I want to hurt myself until I love it
verse
I shoulda known you're not alone
When you take somebody home and
The little deaths are a little less
Even if just for a moment
I'm gonna make my mother so proud of it
chorus
(Hope fades away in Astoria)
I'll say, whatever doesn't make me stronger kills me
But it's gonna be a long year
Until the hospital might find hope in me
outro
Let the melody save me, Astoria
Let the melody save me, Astoria
The quid pro quos that will compose
From esoteric to common prose