Angels

It's not the liquor I'm addicted to, it's feeling brave The feeling of not feeling the pain I've been on and off the bottle I put Oxys up my nostrils, believe me You do anything to breathe, before you suffocate I couldn't stop, but staying clean was not an option I was tryna be myself, but being me was such a problem I just wanted to be Thomas, but Thomas was at the bottom of a hole he dug And getting comfortable inside a coffin, eh He locked it, and swallowed the key Caught up, forgot all his dreams Robbed outta comma, and became embalmed, in a toxic routine Beer was the escape, but I got stuck escaping Whiskey was the blanket, in the coldest basement Way before the fame, I was wasted Freezing, doing anything I could, to keep the flame lit To anyone, going through the same shit Heaven's got enough angels, you need to stay here And I can't make you stay But sometimes going ain't no choice And every choice you make is one that you didn't avoid Crash the whip, and ditch the car Burn a bridge, follow the stars You'll find monsters, in the dark But nothing's worth it, 'til it's hard Sometimes, it's hard to see things clear (through your tears) But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears) It's not the liquor I'm addicted to, it's feeling tough When you get bullied half your life You feel weak, like you just ain't enough Then you have a couple drinks, and you catch a buzz And finally, have the courage to defend yourself, and throw a punch And, that adrenaline goes straight into your brain, and blood Addicted to the confidence is, practically, the greatest drug Chasing dragons, every night, in all the latest clubs What used to be your favorite thing, somehow became a dangerous crutch It was, what it was And that's the thing, it could happen to, like, any of us I had great parents, tight friends Strong morals, nice threads Good school, good lookin' Good grades, time spent Bein' normal, only lasted for a while One bad choice, sparked a downward spiral I've spent half my life, tryna climb outta that hole Heaven's got angels, we need you at home And I can't make you stay But sometimes going ain't no choice And every choice you make is one that you didn't avoid Crash the whip, and ditch the car Burn a bridge, follow the stars You'll find monsters, in the dark But nothing's worth it, 'til it's hard Sometimes, it's hard to see things clear (through your tears) But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears) It ain't the liquor, we're addicted to, it's everything else The happiness we had, but we forget how it felt We've been drinkin' with the devil 'cause we're going through hell Pray to God, for a little bit of help Man, I been there I did those things, I drank those drinks I took those pills, I puked in sinks And the truth ain't pretty Listen up, this is a tough one You get saved by your angels, or become one Crash the whip, and ditch the car Burn a bridge, follow the stars You'll find monsters, in the dark But nothing's worth it, 'til it's hard Sometimes, it's hard to see things clear (through your tears) But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears)