VERSE 1:
Nowadays I normally fake it
If I showed my heart, you’d break it
It still hurts a lot when I say this
But I’ve tried, I can’t escape it
I’ve been questionin’ my purpose
Answer me back, where have you been?
I stay up late hopin’ you’re ok
But you’re always there for my friends
Remember back how it used to be?
Remember when it was you and me?
This is how I feel usually
There’s a hole in my heart it’s stupid deep
I never thought you would leave me
And that alonе made me upset
So now I see you whеn i’m dreaming
I’m drowning my mind is a mess
If it ever gets better than this
I promise that I will not miss
These feelings of dread when I lie in bed
They’ve stolen my joy and I’m pissed
Life’s a lot but I still look back
Keep a blade ‘cause I feel so trapped
Workin’ hard but I feel so stuck
Lost control but I won’t give up
I apologize for venting
But I’m sick and tired of pretending
I’ve been patient but I hate it
Wear a smile to hide my envy
‘Cause my soul’s broken apart
Wish that you could hold my hand
Wish that I could fall in your arms
It took some pain to understand that

VERSE 2:
I write a verse when life’s in pieces
Got some verses that bring me peace
That’s why I put my hope in Jesus
Got some demons that need defeat yeah
Deep down I’ve been jealous
Deep down I’ve been selfish
Deep down I’ve been prideful
Now it’s time I burnt these idols
I’ve been lost between these thoughts
Of who I am and who I was
I’ve been caught between these thoughts
Of what I want and what I trust
I always thought I’d be over there
So often I’m tempted to compare
But your promises don’t change
Even when my life’s the same
Tell my girlfriend, you don’t complete me
Tell the lies, you don’t deceive me
Tell my job, that you don’t need me
Tell my God, that you’ve redeemed me
I’m just holdin’ on by faith
And I know you’ll keep me safe
From the fears that tend to pray
I just hope I tend to pray
I’m confident He’s working
But I’m sick and tired of hurting
I’ve been patient but I hate it
Sing your praise to pain I’m nursing
Yet my soul’s broken apart
Still i know you’re holdin’ my hand
I know you’ve got me in your arms
It took some pain to understand that