[Part I: I Thought About Killing Myself]

[Verse]
Yeah, I thought about taking my life
'Cause I was committing crime when I was just nine
Now I’m writing rhymes and I cry all the time
And when I don't think about you, I wanna die
And I really need someone to save me
Before depression bites back like it's rabies
And I don’t know if I'ma ever have a baby
'Cause from a young age they told me I'd never get a lady
And I'd never get laid, G, but fuck, now they pay me
And they say they rate me, but I think they hate me
And man was diagnosed at six, I'm surrounded by pricks
And I thought he was my best friend, turns out he was a dick
And the people that I trusted
Probably belong in the Empire, not the Republic
Yeah, and they told man to suck dick
But fuck, who gives a flying fuck about me?
Who fucking cares about Rhys?
They all wanna see him on the streets
Slumped over, dead, couple rats by his feet
Yeah, and I'm hearing voices in my head
Yeah, and they tellin' me I should be dead
Yeah, and they sayin’ that I’m well fed
But I'm ungrateful for the shitty life I was led
Yeah, and the police was out to get me
And everyone wan’ stress me
I try to be my best me
But it's really fucking hard when nobody can get me
I think I'm talking to my friends but I'm just talking to some figures
And they all digital, remember when I stole my mum’s liquor
They said my brain was the size of a nut, no Snicker's
It was tough, when I used to pee the bed I used to wear my nan's knickers, ridiculous
And I really really wanna take my notepad when I go, go, go
'Cah I been writing 'bout the roads, roads, roads
You know I can't be fuck with no hoes, no, no
And I always been taking notes, notes
I was raised in the SPED, yeah, and man had no ed
Couldn't get in my head, they said when I grew up I'd be dead
I nearly got sent to the military at eight
Because I was running from classes with my mate
He gave me a dogtag with my poorly-spelled name
I remember when I didn't really care about fame
I used to listen to dubstep like "Fuck yes"
Um, yeah, music, it made me a check
And when I say that I'm self-harming I ain't talking 'bout no casualties
I'm just thinking 'bout myself, depression got itself a saddle, see?
And ain't no bad bitches tryna straddle me
I remember when they used to say social worker could handle me or manage me
And now I need a fucking bandage, jeez
My heart's battery's runnin' out
Remember the times when I didn't know about clout
When YouTube and David Bowie was what I was about
Now I'm a failure with no followers, I said that from my mouth
And this ain't just a song about my youth
It's me confessing, it's the fucking truth
I was a troubled child and I admit that
And it got to my head, now I'm a bit fat
And this ain't no Eminem "Drug Ballad"
This is that real shit that help me like a salad
And I'm the one in the game who always keeps strength
Talking my thoughts whilst you big up Cench
And me and Cody's friendship, it's tense
I see my ghost already, fam, I got the sixth sense
And they talkin' bits, man, talk your shit
Manna talk their shit, but they lookin' Brad Pitt
Yeah, and I got a little rugged like radium
And if they hit me for a feature I won't pay 'em
Just because I hate 'em, don't rate 'em
Boy, you is a paigon

[Part II: Then I Remembered You]

[Intro]
Uh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(I thought about killing myself)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(And then I remembered you)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(Damn)
Let's go (Man, I'm back on my lyrical shit)

[Chorus]
Ayy, fuck the competition and whoever say my name, bitch
My opps got stuff in common but we don't say we the same, bitch
I won't stop all this rap shit, even if I don't get paid, bitch
I talked to my idol then I cried, man, I guess I made it
Got the cosign from Ray J, but they still hate me
What you tryna say, say? I am not afraid, 'fraid
I thought about killing myself but then I remembered you
They told me that I'd never make it, guess that wasn't the truth
Ayy, fuck the competition and whoever say my name, bitch
My opps got stuff in common but we don't say we the same, bitch
I won't stop all this rap shit, even if I don't get paid, bitch
I talked to my idol then I cried, man, I guess I made it

[Verse]
Yeah, ever since I made it I conversated with haters
They said I'd never be rated, just hated, discriminated
But lately, I changed, G, they changed me
But for the better
Doesn't matter, I'm snugged up but don't need a sweater
If your ho wanna listen to me then let her
'Cause I made it and I deserve to be heard like Mayweather
And your bitch, man, I might get her
If they ask me how I'm doing I just say that I'm doing good
'Cause my music is poppin', and I made it out the hood
I made it out the M.H., can't you understand that, bruv?
I made me one-forty, yeah, that's beginner shit, so what?
(It's more than what some people could make)
I'm in a dying breed of people
God needs to come and save us, man
They saying I'm extreme even though I'm trying to, to keep it tame
But they don't understand, they just wanna speak up on my name
They say I'm homophobic, like, you don't even know my pain
I've been through more struggles than you
I don't give a fuck about you
So listen up, little dude
I'ma go fuck on your boo (Diablo, man)

[Chorus]
Ayy, fuck the competition and whoever say my name, bitch
My opps got stuff in common but we don't say we the same, bitch
I won't stop all this rap shit, even if I don't get paid, bitch
I talked to my idol then I cried, man, I guess I made it
Got the cosign from Ray J, but they still hate me
What you tryna say, say? I am not afraid, 'fraid
I thought about killing myself but then I remembered you
They told me that I'd never make it, guess that wasn't the truth

[Bridge]
Remember, remember
Remember December?
When we fought forever?
When I tried to tell her
Something 'cause the weather
Was gettin' no better
But you didn't care
Didn't care 'bout my fears
Man, it wasn't fair
I nearly killed myself because you wasn't there
My dad didn't teach me how to tie my shoes
Mum was never there, she was working to get us cool
We tried to make it out the town but that was hard because they shoot
Tried to make it out the hood before I'm left in a bloody pool, ayy

[Chorus]
Ayy, fuck the competition and whoever say my name, bitch
My opps got stuff in common but we don't say we the same, bitch
I won't stop all this rap shit, even if I don't get paid, bitch
I talked to my idol then I cried, man, I guess I made it
Got the cosign from Ray J, but they still hate me
What you tryna say, say? I am not afraid, 'fraid
I thought about killing myself but then I remembered you
They told me that I'd never make it, guess that wasn't the truth
Ayy, fuck the competition and whoever say my name, bitch
My opps got stuff in common but we don't say we the same, bitch
I won't stop all this rap shit, even if I don't get paid, bitch
I talked to my idol then I cried, man, I guess I made it

[Refrain]
Remember, remember
Remember December?
When I cried forever?
When I wanted to die
When I would just cry
I sat on the floor, wishin' I was in Dubai
But you didn't care
Didn't care 'bout my fears
Man, it wasn't fair
I nearly killed myself because you wasn't there
Please don't talk on my name
Please don't talk on my name
Please don't talk on my name
Please don't talk on my name (Woah, woah, woah, woah, woah)
Please don't talk on my name
Please don't talk on my name
Please don't talk on my name
Please don't talk on my name (Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy, hold up)

[Outro: SunlightJ]
I'ma drink his pee