Deathbed

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when i got back from tour, i was pretty lonely and low, cause all my friends were still at college etc. i was definitely in a heavy state of overthinking every little thing… Read More

Jun. 8, 20181 viewer17.4K views

Deathbed Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I apologize for what I said
But I still meant it
I know that I live in my head
U won't let me forget it
I promised that I tried
But walls don't break
And words don't mean enough
I swear I never meant
To lose my grip on something that I love

[Chorus]
I'll be laying on my deathbed
And I'll tell u that I fucked it up
Yeah I'll be laying on my deathbed
'Cause I love u but it's not enough

[Verse 2]
I'm praying something's gonna give
Yeah I know I feel it
And the pendulum is gonna swing
And rotate the seasons
I promise that I'll try
To be a person u deserve at all
Cause maybe if I change
You'll let me in when I wanna come home

[Chorus]
I'll be laying on my deathbed
And I'll tell u that I fucked it up
Yeah I'll be laying on my deathbed
'Cause I love u but it's not enough

[Outro]
I promised that I tried
But walls don't break
And words don't mean enough
I swear I never meant
To lose my grip on something that I love

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About

when i got back from tour, i was pretty lonely and low, cause all my friends were still at college etc. i was definitely in a heavy state of overthinking every little thing about myself and i wrote deathbed really about how i never feel like i’m good enough in my relationships. i always think that somehow i’ll fuck it up and sometimes that can be a self fulfilling prophecy.

when i wrote this song, i recorded the demo vocals through tears. i knew i could never recreate that raw emotion so i insisted on using those demo vocals for the final mix.