Aye Lil Durk can I talk to the streets to, I got some shit to tell em
I been acting pretty heartless but I still cry
Yea I'm alive in real life but in my dreams I die
I been sayin that I'm happy but I still lie
I been cheated on more than once but I still try
I learned to hide my pain and put my feelings in disguise
I know you see that bloody red when looking in my eye
I'm asking God everyday why am I alive
He say he like my talent and my drive so I survive

Dropping down praying to God like everyday
I know I suck at venting pain I found a different way
Playing beats going through my thoughts what to say
I'm tired of hearing people say it's gone be okay
My thoughts come right to mind when looking at that page
I been looking down lately my heart full of rage
I been followed by the devil I'm stuck in this cage
I be stepping all alone going through this phase
This feel like deja vu I been stuck up in a maze
When my heart broke that shock feel like a police taze
Like a police taze, like a police taze

I been acting cocky lately I won't even call
I been always inna group but yea I left em all
Ain't nobody there to help me my back onna wall
Not yo fam but yo homies wait for you to fall
I been using headphones just to ease the pain
I used to be happy life is not the same
You come outside inna light I stay up inna rain
Depression last long like a ride onna train
Always had a big heart but couldn't force the movement
Couldn't take my heart from out my chest so I had my brother do it
She think that she can cheat and not be caught I guess I'm stupid
I'm still in love but I'm stubborn let me talk to cupid
Feel that depression on the ride to the police station
I check on people daily they don't care bout what I'm facing
Them drugs beat me when I cry I feel my heart racing
I had to learn to numb my pain cuz I know it's pacing

I been acting pretty heartless but I still cry
Yea I'm alive in real life but in my dreams I die
I been sayin that I'm happy but I still lie
I been cheated on more than once but I still try
I learned to hide my pain and put my feelings in disguise
I know you see that bloody red when looking in my eye
I'm asking God everyday why am I alive
He say he like my talent and my drive so I survive
So I survive, he like my talent so I survive
Thank you God
Aye, everybody facing depression or going through stuff y'all not alone stay up