I need comfort like I need more debt, like I need higher rent, like I need vitamins
I never felt safe so why start now
I need a shot of adrenaline when I feel exhaustion begin to win
Just a little stimulation before the endless vacation

I left every home I ever built, afraid I’d die if I stood still
And leaned into this existential failure

It’s not brave to run away when it’d be so much harder to have to stay
And take a long look at yourself

Because when you start from zero and turn out fine
It gets easier to think that that’s a life. And I never felt right feeling good

I’m scared, I’m restless, I’m bored
I want to be happy but it feels like a fucking chore

There’s a chance I died doing 105 through the vineyards to I-5
But no one had the heart to tell me
They saw the grin on my face as I leaned straight-ahead into my fate
And hoped some day I learned to sit still
Oh god I hope one day I have a will