[Verse]
16 years old but I'm stayin' young
Where were y'all when the when the when the pain come?
When I feel numb?
When I feel dumb?
When I can't can't can't get my grades up?
My head hurts and my heart does too
Can I paint the ceiling with a .22?
Doubt and fear seem to follow me
Pressure's on, college callin' me
Time's runnin' out, can't scream or shout
Fight or flight and my heart's giving out
My heart is torn and I'm too forlorn
And I often wish I had never been born
Petty things always on my mind
Think about life at the same damn time
Will this matter in a couplе years?
Can't hold on to me so I'll disappear
Words hurt and actions impact
I'm at an impass 'causе I'm an empath
Invisible, yeah, you can't see me
I love and hate all of my dreams
Sleep is an escape, then I wake
Not my funeral, it's just another day
I'm so scared when I die in my nightmares
Look in the mirror and I see me right there
Don't know when I'm living or dreaming
Can't pinch myself 'cause I always feel it
My mind hates me, it's such a taunt
Got me dreamin' all the things I want
I want friends and I want love
That's why I can't get up
My life is better when I'm horizontal
Fuck all them self help mottos
Hit the bottle then I hit something harder
I won't be happy even if I die a martyr
Pardon me, nah, fuck that
It's uncomfortable to face the facts
I hate reality and I hate fiction
How do I battle this addiction?
I need something to live for in life
Or else I'm living in sleep every night