age/sex/location

Transitional space. Very vunerable codependent and validation seeking part of my life. I remember the times I was kicked out of dating apps because they didn’t think I was really myself 😂, it reminded me of those age/sex/location days where I actually wasn’t being myself in those chat rooms 😂. I spent so much time seeing the god and good in some abusive people. Neglecting my needs and self worth. Romanticizing terrible people. Ignoring red flags. Ignoring my opinions and those knots in my stomach when interacting with people I’m dating. Communicating my concerns immediately. No more tip toeing. No more docile. Providing grace and compassion to myself. Blocking those that no longer need me or just literally not responding. Blocking the resistance to heal. Allowing accountability and maturing. Allowing growth to happen. Allowing self worth and self love and inner work to happen. Allowing therapy. Allowing dating me to happen. Doing things I like to do whenever I want. Learning new things. Allowing that desperation and neediness to fade. What’s for me is for me and I’m complete on my own. This is my eat pray love journey. And it’s my honest goodbye to searching for love. I got it right here inside of me. The end of searching for anything other than self love and family. Pouring into me and giving the greatest love to me.