Death In My Pocket
MACHINE GUN KELLY & Naomi Wild Lyrics

I got death in my pocket and nothing but time
I carry death with me, but I have a lot of time on my hands, indicating a lack of concern for mortality.

All these bones in the closet, in the back of my mind
There are dark secrets and regrets that haunt me, but I choose to ignore them and keep them hidden away.

I just leave 'em there, I don't even care, no
I don't bother addressing or dealing with these past mistakes and traumas because I simply don't care.

Holding up a flare, I could use a prayer, oh
Metaphorically signaling for help and guidance, expressing a desire for redemption and spiritual support.

I got death in my pocket, but I feel so alive
Despite the darkness and struggles that surround me, I still find a sense of vitality and purpose in my life.

Don't know, why but it feels like my world is crashing down
Uncertain about the reasons, but experiencing a sense of impending doom and despair in my personal life.

I just bought a brand, fuck
I recently acquired something new, most likely referring to a car, expressing a reckless desire to destroy it.

Darkness does it take to get this flashy, huh
Reflecting on the irony of using negativity and pain to achieve a superficial, attention-grabbing image.

Don't know why, but it feels like my world is crashing down
Still unsure of the cause, but strongly sensing a complete collapse and upheaval in my personal life.

I just bought a brand new car, I wanna crash it now
Despite the uncertainties, I feel a destructive urge to deliberately ruin and bring chaos to something I just acquired.

How much darkness did it take to get this flashy now?
Reflecting on the cost of personal suffering and difficult experiences that were necessary to attain a glamorous and attention-seeking lifestyle.

I lose a piece of my soul when the cameras flash
The constant exposure to the public eye and scrutiny takes a toll on my emotional well-being, causing me to lose a sense of my true self.

So I'm asking every fan who's questioning my passion
Addressing fans who doubt my authenticity and commitment, pleading for their understanding and trust.

Thinking I'm caught up in fashion or that I forgot my past
Responding to assumptions that I am only focused on superficial trends and have disregarded my history and struggles.

To understand that I'm just a dropout, I don't have the answers
Explaining that I am a product of dropping out of school, emphasizing that I don't possess all the solutions or explanations.

I became a dad so young, I ain't know how to use them Pampers
Sharing the experience of becoming a father at a young age and admitting the lack of knowledge and preparedness in handling parental responsibilities.

Baby mama's food stamps kept my stomach full
Acknowledging the support received from my child's mother and government assistance to ensure basic sustenance during challenging times.

I had to make a plan 'cause now my family needed me to make a rap
Facing the pressure of providing for my family, I had to strategize a way to use my musical talent to support them.

And me and Slim back at that address, 128th, we trapping
Recalling a time when my friend Slim and I were involved in illicit activities out of necessity, likely referring to selling drugs.

Writing lyrics down on napkins, room so small, we share a mattress
Describing the humble beginnings of my music career, where I would write songs on scraps of paper in a cramped room shared with Slim, which also served as our sleeping space.

Look what happened
Highlighting the successful outcome and positive transformation that arose from those challenging circumstances.

Don't know how I get so high but I'm not passin' out
Uncertain about the reasons behind my current state of euphoria, but determined not to let it fade away or lose consciousness.

I guess the drugs are in my blood, hope I don't pass it down
Acknowledging a potential hereditary connection to substance abuse, expressing a desire to prevent passing this pattern down to future generations.

Hope I'm allowed to see my baby get her cap and gown
Expressing the wish to witness important milestones, such as my child's graduation, before any potential negative consequences catch up with me.

'Cause doctors told my dad he won't be here a year from now
Sharing the devastating news received about my father's health, implying the uncertainty and fragility of life.

Yeah, my first reaction is punchin' the wall until it's cracking
Revealing an impulsive and destructive response to emotional pain, resorting to physical violence as an outlet for frustration and grief.

Both my knuckles shattered, don't ask what the fuck's the matter
Describing the aftermath of the violent outburst, refusing to explain the emotional turmoil that triggered such extreme behavior.

I've been battling the fact I lost my closest to cancer
Enduring an ongoing struggle with the painful reality of losing someone I held dear to cancer, indicating a deep emotional wound that is yet to heal.

The only thing she asked was for me and him to get closer
Recalling the dying wish of the person I lost, highlighting their desire for me and another individual to reconcile and strengthen our bond.

But I hung up too fast, went to sleep and then she passed
Regretfully recounting a missed opportunity to fulfill the dying wish due to my impatience and unawareness of the limited time left, resulting in her passing while I was unaware.

You've been silent seven years, it took that to get us back
Addressing the person I lost, expressing frustration and acknowledging the prolonged period of silence and detachment between us that was required to eventually reconnect.

We all needed second chances, I've been bottlin' the sadness
Recognizing the significance of forgiveness and fresh starts for everyone involved, admitting to suppressing feelings of sorrow and grief.

I guess I'm just happy that we finally got to bury shit before the casket
Expressing relief and gratitude for the opportunity to resolve conflicts and put an end to negative emotions before it was too late and irreversible.

I think I'm ready to die tonight
Contemplating the possibility of death, possibly indicating a mindset of accepting the unpredictable nature of life.

It's fucked up 'cause I ain't lived half my life
Expressing frustration over the feeling of having experienced only a fraction of what life has to offer before potentially facing death.

I saw the devil and passed him like
Reflecting on a confrontation with personal demons or internal struggles, symbolized by the devil, but successfully ignoring and moving past them.

"You tryna fuck up my afterlife"
Addressing the devil metaphorically, asserting that overcoming challenges and refusing to succumb to darkness is vital for securing a positive afterlife or leaving a lasting legacy.

But I don't even care, you can keep me there, yeah
Expressing an indifference towards the negative forces or consequences that may await after death, indicating a willingness to accept whatever fate comes.

Holdin' up a flare, I needed a prayer, yeah
Symbolizing a cry for help and divine intervention, seeking comfort and guidance during challenging times.

I got death in my pocket
Continuing to carry the reminder of mortality and the transient nature of life.

But I feel so alive
Despite the looming presence of death, experiencing a profound sense of vitality and being fully present in the moment.