Bilmuri is a American one man alternative/pop rock/post-hardcore project fo… Read Full Bio ↴Bilmuri is a American one man alternative/pop rock/post-hardcore project founded by former Attack Attack! member Johnny Franck in 2016. The name Bilmuri is a abbreviated parody of the great comedian and actor Bill Murray. Bilmuri debuted in 2016 with "Jaguar Shark", "Letters" and a self-titled album, followed up by "Frame" and "Banana" in 2017, along with "Taco" and "Solid Chub" in 2018. A year later in 2019, he would release "Pasteurized Milk", "Wet Milk" and "Rich Sips", which were all well received among his current fanbase. The project gained more attention from former Attack Attack! fans by releasing a single from "Rich Sips" entitled "Thicc Thiccly", featuring former Attack Attack! bandmate and Beartooth vocalist Caleb Shomo, parodying Attack Attacks hit single "Stick Stickly". In 2020, Bilmuri released a collaborative EP called "Bilmuri and Friends" (or "Muri and Friends" for short) with Dayseeker, No Dice, Tilian Pearson, Jonathan Young, Lauren Babic, Surf Team and Whale Bones. This was followed by the release of "400LB BACK SQUAT" in 2021 and "GOBLIN HOURS" in 2022.

I Always Wanna Die
Bilmuri Lyrics

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I bet you thought your life would change
But you're sat on a train again
Your memories are sceneries for
Things you said but never really meant
You build it to a high to say goodbye
Because you're not the same as them
But your death, it won't happen to you
It happens to your family and your friends

I pretend

And I always wanna die sometimes
I always wanna die sometimes

You win, you lose, you sing the blues
There's no point in buying concrete shoes
I'll refuse

And I always wanna die sometimes
I always wanna die sometimes
I always wanna die

Am I me through geography?
A face collapsed through entropy
I can hardly speak
And when I try it's nothing but a squeak
On the video, living room for small
If you can't survive just try

And I always wanna die sometimes
I always wanna die

(Always wanna die, always wanna die
Always wanna die) and I always wanna die
(Always wanna die, always wanna die
Always wanna die) sometimes, die sometimes
And I always wanna die

(Always wanna die, always wanna die
Always wanna die) sometimes

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Bilmuri No Dice's song "I Always Wanna Die" depict a sense of melancholy and existential questioning. The singer expresses a feeling of disappointment, as they believed their life would change but find themselves stuck in a repetitive cycle, symbolized by being "sat on a train again." Their memories are described as mere scenery, suggesting that the things they have experienced and the words they have spoken hold little meaning or significance. The lyrics also touch upon the idea of building up walls and pretending to be different from others, possibly to protect oneself from the pain of death. However, the singer acknowledges that death will ultimately happen to their loved ones, not to themselves directly.

Throughout the song, there is a recurring theme of contemplating death. The singer confesses that there are times when they always want to die, implying a constant struggle with feelings of despair and a desire for an escape. This sentiment is raw and introspective, shedding light on the emotional turmoil that the singer experiences. The lyrics also touch upon the concept of winning and losing, suggesting that life is a constant battle, and at times, hopelessness can overwhelm. However, the singer ultimately rejects the idea of succumbing to despair, refusing to buy into the notion that life is meaningless.

Line by Line Meaning

I bet you thought your life would change
You believed that your life would improve or transform

But you're sat on a train again
Yet here you are, stuck on a train once more

Your memories are sceneries for
Your memories become landscapes that represent

Things you said but never really meant
Words you spoke but didn't truly intend

You build it to a high to say goodbye
You create an illusion to bid farewell

Because you're not the same as them
Due to your differences from others

But your death, it won't happen to you
However, your death will not occur to you personally

It happens to your family and your friends
Instead, it affects those close to you

I pretend
I feign or pretend

And I always wanna die sometimes
Occasionally, I constantly desire to end my life

You win, you lose, you sing the blues
You experience victories, defeats, and express sadness

There's no point in buying concrete shoes
There's no purpose in burdening oneself further

I'll refuse
I will decline or reject

Am I me through geography?
Is my identity determined by my location?

A face collapsed through entropy
A face deteriorating due to natural decay

I can hardly speak
I can barely communicate

And when I try it's nothing but a squeak
And when I make an effort, it only results in a weak sound

On the video, living room for small
In the video, the living room seems confined

If you can't survive just try
If you cannot endure, simply attempt

And I always wanna die sometimes
Occasionally, I constantly desire to end my life

(Always wanna die, always wanna die Always wanna die) and I always wanna die
(Always want to die, always want to die, always want to die) and I always want to die

(Always wanna die, always wanna die Always wanna die) sometimes, die sometimes
(Always want to die, always want to die, always want to die) occasionally, experience death occasionally

And I always wanna die
And I constantly desire to end my life

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