Footsteps
Kehlani Lyrics

Patience could've done us well
If we were patient, our relationship would have been better.

'Cause I could tell that all we lack was presence
Our relationship lacked emotional connection.

Then I would've fell, you could've helped
If we had connected better, we could have supported each other.

Neither of us knew what we wanted, uh
We were both unsure of what we wanted in the relationship.

But all we knew is that we cared, uh
Despite our uncertainty, we loved each other.

Still all we painted was a moment, uh
Our relationship was fleeting and temporary.

And when I walked away
When I ended the relationship

I left footsteps in the mud so you could follow me
I left a trail for you to find me and try to reconcile.

You're so bad at holding water, slips right through your fingers
You are not good at keeping things together and things slip away easily.

We'd both end up drowning, it would hit the ground
If we had stayed together, we would have both suffered and hit rock bottom.

Wash away
Everything would have been lost and forgotten.

And I really wanna work this out 'cause I'm tired of fighting
I want to fix the relationship but I'm tired of the constant struggle.

And it really feels like this shit been on autopilot
Our relationship has been running itself without much effort from us.

But it's a bitch you want me
It's difficult because you still have feelings for me.

The bitch I am, but not the chick you want
You want somebody different from who I am.

Residual damage left in place of what was beautiful
The remains of what was once beautiful are now damaged and deteriorating.

Excuses only work when what we've done is still excusable
We can only justify our actions when they are still justifiable.

But still, cheers to being honest, uh
Despite our problems, we can still be proud of our honesty.

I left footsteps in the mud so you could follow me
I left a trail for you to find me and try to reconcile.

You are a vision of perfection
You are perfect in my eyes.

I was caught up in a blessin'
I was lucky to have you.

Didn't realize how it wasn't fair to compare
It was unfair for me to compare my experiences to yours.

All the things I knew that I've been through
I have gone through many experiences.

As if you didn't have anything that you went through
I neglected to acknowledge your own experiences.

I treated you like medicine
I relied on you to make me feel better.

But I guess I wasn't listening
I failed to listen to your own struggles and pain.

But as long as I felt better, then it was all good
As long as I felt better, I didn't care about your own well-being.

But we wasn't good
Our relationship was not healthy.

Still dealing with the battles, feeling so inadequate
I am still struggling with my own battles and feel insecure.

And I know that I should've stayed
I regret leaving the relationship.

But at the time, it felt like I had to quit
At the time, I felt like I had no other choice but to leave.

And I know that you probably thinking
I know you are likely thinking

Just I ain't thinking 'bout myself
I am not only thinking about myself.

But you still playing in my head to this day talking 'bout
I still think about you and the relationship.

You could've helped
You could have supported me if our relationship had been stronger.