The song "RM. 143" by Reggie Becton explores the emotions and longing associated with a passionate but secretive relationship.
In the verses, the artist reflects on a past connection that didn't fully materialize. The speaker is shaken and in love, reminiscing about the moments they almost had together. However, they are now crushed due to the relationship not coming to fruition. The line "I hope nobody knows" suggests that this love affair was kept hidden or discreet.
The chorus reveals that the speaker is currently in a room (1-4-3) and waiting patiently for their love interest. They are filled with anticipation and their yearning for the person is causing them to feel suffocated ("barely breathe, can barely sleep"). The plea to keep it between them emphasizes the secretive nature of their relationship, wanting to protect their connection from external interference or scrutiny.
In the second verse, the artist recalls intimate moments in a sprinter van and in Venice, highlighting the deep physical connection shared between them. The acknowledgement that their relationship was not committed suggests that it was casual or undefined, yet the speaker firmly believes that what they had cannot be easily described or defined by others.
The bridge acknowledges the toxicity of the relationship, with the speaker recognizing that they are treated as an option and not given the priority they desire. Despite attempting to distance themselves emotionally ("tried to block you"), their heart's desires cannot be easily suppressed.
Overall, "RM. 143" delves into the intensity, secrecy, and longing of a relationship where the connection is kept hidden from the world, and the speaker is left yearning for their love interest despite the toxic dynamics.