I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
[Chorus]
Jesus Christ, will you look at me?
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am
[Verse 2]
I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself all alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call (All alone, I cry)
I'm not myself at all
[Chorus]
Jesus Christ, will you look at me?
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am
[Bridge]
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
But in the process, I forgot
That I was special too
I'm not myself when you go quiet
(I'm not myself when you're around)
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
(I'm not myself all alone at night)
I'm not myself and I don't know how
(Don't know what I believe)
I'm not myself, myself right now
[Chorus]
Jesus Christ, will you look at me?
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Someone say if I should give a damn
(Don't really know if I should give a damn)
When you're around, I don't know who I am
[Outro]
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
But in the process, I forgot
That I was special too
I always wished that I could find
Someone as talented as you
But in the process, I forgot
That I was just as good as you
About
“X-Static Process” is an introspective song with folk guitar backing that details Madonna on the verge of existential crisis. The title is a homophone for “ecstatic process.”
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My favorite song on the album is X-Static Process because I’m on my own, with my guitar and because I sing all the harmonies and choruses, I do not know, this song has something that reminds me of my childhood … it’s really a very simple song.
– Via Los40
It started off being a love song but then the subject of Jesus crept in and I realized that my problem with men is the same as my problem with Jesus. And that is, if you give Jesus/Men more power than they deserve, you will get fucked… I love men, When you give them too much power, when you make them bigger than you are. When you act like they are more important than you are, when you idolize them.
–via LucasCava (2020)
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