So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Take me away yeah!
That's enough of all your taunting
Seems I can't remove you from my mind
Don't you know that sometimes
I wish they'd kill me for wanting you
I will sit alone in silence
Can't allow the meaning I can find
Will you be defeated when they
Kill me for wanting you
I can't believe that my sanity
Lies in abandoning you
I can't recall the helpless times
I've been betrayed by you
Sickened from wanting you
Frightened of finding the truth
Don't say anymore
Now my mind isn't changing
This reckoning's long overdue
All past the walls around me
In the prison of my own design
Will I win my freedom if they
Kill me for wanting you
Maybe the arms of Hell will hound me
Just as long as I remain confined
I will be completed when they
Kill me for wanting you
I can't believe that my sanity
Lies in abandoning you
I can't recall the helpless times
I've been betrayed by you
Sickened from wanting you
Frightened of finding the truth
Don't say anymore
Now my mind isn't changing
This reckoning's long overdue
So I have determined I am undone
Will I bury another problem
In the graveyard you allowed me to find
So I have determined I am no one
When I finally cling to something
And it's never been tied to
Every single memory of you
Sickened from wanting you
Frightened of finding the truth
Don't say anymore
Now my mind isn't changing
This reckoning's long overdue
So I have determined I am undone
Will I bury another problem
In the graveyard you allowed me to find
That's enough of all your taunting
Seems I can't remove you from my mind
Don't you know that sometimes
I wish they'd kill me for wanting you
I will sit alone in silence
Can't allow the meaning I can find
Will you be defeated when they
Kill me for wanting you
I can't believe that my sanity
Lies in abandoning you
I can't recall the helpless times
I've been betrayed by you
Sickened from wanting you
Frightened of finding the truth
Don't say anymore
Now my mind isn't changing
This reckoning's long overdue
All past the walls around me
In the prison of my own design
Will I win my freedom if they
Kill me for wanting you
Maybe the arms of Hell will hound me
Just as long as I remain confined
I will be completed when they
Kill me for wanting you
I can't believe that my sanity
Lies in abandoning you
I can't recall the helpless times
I've been betrayed by you
Sickened from wanting you
Frightened of finding the truth
Don't say anymore
Now my mind isn't changing
This reckoning's long overdue
So I have determined I am undone
Will I bury another problem
In the graveyard you allowed me to find
So I have determined I am no one
When I finally cling to something
And it's never been tied to
Every single memory of you
Sickened from wanting you
Frightened of finding the truth
Don't say anymore
Now my mind isn't changing
This reckoning's long overdue
So I have determined I am undone
Will I bury another problem
In the graveyard you allowed me to find
Lyrics submitted by Cactus Fn Chris
Sickened Lyrics as written by David Draiman Dan Donegan
Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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he says "I cant believe my sanity lies in abandoning you" I think its about him liking someone but knowing it just wont work out cuz hes in a band..kinda like guarded, stricken, and mistress
I think it's about wanting someone you hate, and it sickenes you.
I've listened to this song on repeat for the last 24 hours.
I don't think it's a woman he's talking about. I think he's talking about an addiction. It sounds like whomever has tried to get help and yet...can't shake the need for whatever this addiction.
"I can't believe my sanity lies in abandoning you" how many addicts swear they aren't addicts because they still have it "together" or it hasn't affected them the way it has other people but the fact it is, it's still affecting him and he has to make a decision.
Most people turn to an addiction to bury problems...the graveyard? buried problems? And believe it or not, most addicts find no pleasure in their addiction...they find relief....and they cling to that....when he asks will he be able to cling to something else other than this addiction? And most addicts are sickened by their addiction, disgusted something has that kind of grip.
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i don't have the actual lyrics or anything but it sounds a lot more like they r saying i cant believe that my sanity lies in abandoning you not I can't believe in my settling lies and abandoning you
The song seems to be explaining the effects of having your sanity tested by betrayal.
I think the song is about loving someone but hating the things they do and in a way feeling repulsed by them and yourself for your feelings. Also that repulsion paired with a conflicting emotion is madening and the only way to save yourself is to leave them behind and find something untainted by their memory.
i think the song means that a you cant get someone off your mind, and you're sick of that person.