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To un-explain
The unforgivable
Drain all the blood & give the kids a show
By streetlight
This dark night
A séance down below
There're things that I have done
You never
Should ever know

And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone
Forever now
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone

Forever now

Who walks among the famous living dead
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed
And if you could talk to me
Tell me if it's so
That all the good girls go
To heaven
Well heaven knows

That without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone
Forever now
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone

Forever now

Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on
Figure out
I'm really not so with you anymore
I'm just a ghost

So I can't hurt you anymore
So I can't hurt you anymore

And now
You wanna see how far down
I can sink?
Let me go!

So -
You can -
Well now so -
You can
I'm so far away from you
Well now so -
You can

And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear

Woah
(And without you is how I disappear)
Woah
(And without you is how, is how, I disappear)

Forever
Forever now
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I think InternetUser000 did a great job but I've got some other ideas when it comes to this song. I actually realized what it was about when I was writing a comment about the sharpest lives now I can finally see how this two songs are linked together again I already Know this will be a long comment.... Ok here’s what I think: the patient is in a hospital as we found out in dead he is dieing from cancer and has 2 weeks to live he is lonely and the girl he loves doesn’t come to visit him so he thinks she doesn't love him any more. He thinks that this is because he had done some bad things in his life. he is talking to himself about all the bad things he had done: To un-explain the unforgivable, Drain all the blood and give the kids a show. By streetlight this dark night, A séance down below. There're things that I have done, You never should ever know!

so he cant explain "the unforgivable" he can't explain why he did thouse things. He is dying-"drain all the blood" and at this point he is pathetic so by being like this he is giving the kids a show. The kids are most likely immature people who like to stare when someone is hurt and it is like a show for them. so tonight he is alone and has nothing to do better then to go in to the dark now in the next lines i think there is the biggest reference to The Sharpest Lives: By streetlight this dark night, A séance down below. so in my opinion in The Sharpest Lives he is spending the rest of his days partying, getting drunk and so on. so down below can mean that he is sinking so low and the dark night may not just mean that it realy is night time it can also mean that he is feeling lonely and that everything inside him is dark, his soul is in the dark. So basically in this lines he decides how he is going to spent his last 2 weeks on earth and in The Sharpest Lives we get the picture.

" There're things that I have done, You never should ever know!" In this lines we he is just telling about the bad things he had done and maybe that this is for the best that she is not here so she doesn’t know I also think that all this about doing something bad continues in I Don't Love You and Cancer it is kinda hard to write about one song only because they are all very nicely linked together and it is sometimes hard to explain from where you get a meaning of a certain line.

And without you is how I disappear, And live my life alone forever now. And without you is how I disappear, And live my life alone forever now.

The chorus is simple: He is just telling her (in his head, because she is not there) that he is disappearing without her. Disappearing means that he is not the men he used to be he is fading away into the night, leaving the world behind and he will never fall in love again( if you read my comment about The Sharpest Lives this should explain why I wrote that he doesn't love the girl from that song)

Now comes the hard part: Who walks among the famous living dead, Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed. I actually think that he is the one who walks among the famous living dead(but you never know what Gerard met right? Actually it makes a lot of sense when you put Bert in the story but I don't think this was suppose to be about him but still i think Gerard was thinking about Bert so this song is kinda a mix of the story and the personal life and he did say that so is the album) well back to the topic. He walks among the dead because as I've said his soul is in the dark so there is just a body left and the soul is almost gone (this actually makes me think that cancer on this record can be used as a metaphor like when a person is passing away the body is still here and the soul is gone. Actually as I've said in my other comments the album is telling about all the bad things we do in our lives and that we should live our lives to the fullest before it is to late.) So the part about all the boys in girls in your bed maybe the bed isn't the real bed. This thought just came to me the bed is very intimate right? So maybe every time he slept with her or was close to her in any other way he brought all the bad things into her life all the boys and girls can be the bad people from the Sharpest lives so this shows that he has already(before doing this when he found out that he is sick) done some bad things drugs, alcohol, hurt someone Basically gone out to parties where there are bad people(well you know the kand that put you on drugs or talk you into doing something you don’t really want to do...

And if you could talk to me, Tell me if it's so, That all the good girls go to heaven.

Now he is realy despirate(hope I speled it right my english isn't very good) and is losing his mind so he is calling for her and asking her if all good girls go to heaven so he thinks that she is pure and hoping that she will go to heaven even after he made her ditrty( the girls and the boys in her bed=all the bad things he brought into her life, her soul) and this doesn't really has to mean that she is dirty from sleeping with him....

Well, heaven knows

So he gets a little bit back to normal and sais that only heaven knows that.

then the chorus again

Then my favorite part: "Can you hear me cry out to you? Words I thought I'd choke on figure out. I'm really not so with you anymore. I'm just a ghost, So I can't hurt you anymore, So I can't hurt you anymore."

he is calling her again, he is loseng his mind(about the part of losing his mind it is hard to get it from the lyrics though there are a few words but you can really get it from the music and the way Gerards voice changes)

"Can you hear me cry out to you? Words I thought I'd choke on figure out."

He is probably asking her to forgive him (though as we will find out later in I Don't Love You she wasn't mad at him) "Words I thought I'd choke on" it is hard for him to say i'm sorry so this again shows that he wasn't such a good person before but for her he is willing to not just say them but scream them out. this means he REALLY loves her, not like the girl from The Sharpest Lives. The part about saing he is sorry is also again brought up in Famous Last Words(you see it is hard to talk just about one song)

I'm really not so with you anymore.

he is leaving, going into the dark- into the kind of life-night life he left some time before. Some might think that this line ment that he dies, but as I've said if you take all the songs together you'll understand that he didn't die in this song because in TSL he is still alive and is spending the days that he has left partying,

I'm just a ghost,

he is out of her life so he will be just a ghost for her, but ghosts hunt peole that they loved (or hated) so he will still be with her(in his thoughts) but he will not be able to hurt her"So I can't hurt you anymore, So I can't hurt you anymore."

And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink? Let me go, fuck! So, you can, well now so, you can I'm so far away from you. Well now so, you can.

He is again screming his heart out and asking her does she realy want to see him sink so low, be so pathetic (you know like all the people who get drunk because they are sad) Does she really want to see how low can the one who loves her sink because of her(he is making himself leave her because he loves her and doesnt want to herat her he heart her already by doing all the bad things he has done before and doesnt want to see her suffer because of his death again this continues in IDLY) The let me go part is him begging her to relise him from her spell so he can just let go and leave the last 2 weeks on earth how he wants to.

Fuck

Well I don't need to explain that do I?

So, you can, well now so, you can Now she can see how low he can sink.

I'm so far away from you. Well now so, you can.

again he is far away from her so she wount be hurt and she can see what she has done to him (At this point there is a strugel going on inside of him just like in IDLY he knows he has to leave her it is better for her but he loves her and doesnt want to)

And without you is how I disappear, And without you is how I disappear, Whoa whoa... (And without you is how I disappear) Whoa whoa... (And without you... is how, is how, is how...)

He is sad and is screaming his heart out

Forever, forever now!

he will be gone for ever....

Who that is going to be long. Great song by the way

I would be verry thankful if you comment on my comment and tell me what you think of it cause it took me a while to figure it out...

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how does that not make any sense? the point is, he is dying from cancer. and then, as he's dying, his life flashes before his eyes. Going to war, The cheating, Everything is in his past. It makes perfect sense, if you understand what the band is trying to say.

@chemotherapy see the only flaw with that is that he says "live my life alone now" therefore that he doesn't die. If he were dying, then based off Gerard's beliefs, he'd be reunited with dead relatives. I think that he's saying that since someone extremely close to him (I.e. wife, mother) that he's isolating himself from everyone.

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Yeah the patient makes sense, and I think it's a bit more likely since that is the theme of the concept album from the mouth of Gerard, and I don't think him and Bert were ever actually going out, I saw a clip of Gerard talking about it. Long story short, Chemotherapy is right.

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These aren't the right lyrics either! These are:

Go! To unexplain the unforgivable drain all the blood, and give the kids a show. By street like this dark night, a seance down below, there's things that I have done, you never... should ever know!

And without you is how I disappear and live my life alone forever now. And without you is how I disappear and live my life alone forever now.

Who walks among the famous living dead, drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed. And if you could talk to me, tell me if it's so, that all the good girls go to heaven. Well heaven knows

That without you is how I disappear and live my life alone forever now. And without you is how I disappear and live my life alone forever now.

Can you hear me cry out to you, words I thought I'd choke on, figure out. I'm really not so with you anymore; I'm just a ghost. so I can't hurt you anymore, so I can't hurt you anymore!

You wanna see how far down I can sink, let me go, FUCK!! So you can, well now so you can I'm so far away from you, Well now so you can

And without you is how I disappear, and without you is how I disappear

Forever, Forever now!

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by street LIGHT

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Okay, I have to say it is a certain tragedy that there aren't more comments on this damn good song!!

I think daq_102 did a good job analysing this song here... This is really a hard one, but even though it is hard to clear up the meaning of the whole song together i think each line is so amazing... My fav i think of the album... It's hard to pick one though, there are so many great songs on the black parade...

And if you could talk to me, tell me if it's so, that all the good girls go to heaven. Well heaven knows

This one makes me go crazy!! And so does the bridge... Gaaa, im glad this band exists:D

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first off, i think daq_102 is fucking insane not only does his/her shit not make sense, but his lyrics r wrong 2...how do you get lyrics wrong when theyre n the fucking cd case....unless you didnt buy the cd...THEIF....jk but seriously chemo makes more sense 2 me Buy The CD!!!!SUPPORT YOUR BANDS!!!

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this is definitaly not a song about the ''break up'' between (the FRIENDSHIP) of bert and Gerard... It doesnt really make sense..

It is about the patient .. and when he dies.. as many of you already has said :P

This is one of my fave song of the album..!!

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Well, this is what I have to say: Other people have other opinions, and in this case, dag_102 and chemotherapy are right. They both do have good statements about the song. The album is about this The Patient, but it also makes sense about Gerard and Bert's (friendship) separating. Well, that's just what I had to say. But I guess it depends on the person. :S

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ok gerard is losing someone or saying that if he WERE to lose this some one, he would be nothing end of story...er, or, not quite. the word is "seance", not "say once"