Deja Vu

Paramedic:
{DMC we have a mid-thirties male found down..unresponsive...possible overdose...substance unknown...pulse is sixty-and-thready(?)...respiration is eight, he's intubated and we're baggin' him now...uh, BP is ninety over palp (?) patient is cool, pale, and diuretic...has aspirated...Uh, GSC is three, we'll update en route--ETA ten minutes...}
{Eminem} Verse 1:
As I, fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug-addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
Start off with the NyQuil like, "I think I'll just have a taste"
Couple a sips of that then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called Valium, like "Yeah that's great"
I go to just take one and I end up like havin' eight
Now I need somethin' in my stomach cuz I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
And you'd THINK that with all I have at stake...
Look at my daughter's face "Mommy something is wrong with Dad I think!
He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me!
And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos and he just
Fell asleep in his car eatin' Three Musketeer's in the rear seat"
Chorus:
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
God it feels like Deja Vu
I wanna get away from this place, I do
But I can't, and I won't
See I try, but I know
That's a lie, cuz I don't
And why I just don't know...
Verse 2:
"Maybe just an ice-cold brew, what's a beer?"
That's the devil in my ear, I've been sober a fuckin' year
And that fucker still talks to me, he's all I can fuckin' hear
"Marshall come on, we'll watch the game it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half-buzzed for half of the time
Who's the mastermind behind that little line?
With that kind of rationale, man I got half a mind
To have another half-a-glass of wine, sounds asinine
Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
"Ouch! Look out for the wall
Aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall!"
I miss the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball
Shit musta knocked me out cuz I ain't feel the ground at all
"Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I?
Man, FUCK am I hungover and god damn I, got a head ache
Shit half a Vicodin, why can't I?"
*chhk* "All systems ready for take-off, please stand by"
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Verse 3:
So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then *ahh*
Couple a weeks go by and it ain't even like I'm gettin' high
Now I need it just to not feel sick, yeah I'm gettin' by
Wouldn't even be takin' this shit if DeShaun didn't die
Oh yeah, there's an excuse you lose Proof so you use
There's new rules, it cool if it's helpin' you to get through
It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze
What else is new? Fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes?
Now here I am three months later, full blown relapse
"Just get high until the kids get home from school homes, relax"
And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps
Just to be able to function throughout the day
Let's see, that's an Ambien each nap; How many Valium, three?
And that would average out to one good hour's sleep
Okay so now ya see, the reason how come he
Has taken four years to just put out an album, B
See me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath
Cuz that Christmas, you know the whole pneumonia thing?
It was bologna, was it the methadone ya think?
Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos
Your VCR tapes cases with your Ambien CR, great places
To hide 'em ain't it? So you can lie to Hailie
"I'm goin' bed-e-bye Whintey baby, good night Alaina!"
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door
And wake up in an ambulance
They said they found me on the bathroom floor (DAMN)
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