So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Eh-eh, eh-eh ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh aha-aha
Eh-eh, eh-eh ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh aha-aha
I love that lavender blond
The way she moves the way she walks
I touch myself can't get enough
And in the silence of the night
Through all the tears and all the lies
I touch myself and it's alright
Just give in, don't give up, baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me
Just know when that glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, yeah
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah, I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
I am as vain as I allow
I do my hair, I gloss my eyes
I touch myself all through the night
And when something falls out of place
I take my time, I put it back
I touch myself 'til I'm on track
Just give in, don't give up, baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me
Just know when that glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, yeah
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah, I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
So happy I could die and it's alright
So happy I could die and it's alright
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah, I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
Eh-eh, eh-eh aha-aha
Eh-eh, eh-eh ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh aha-aha
I love that lavender blond
The way she moves the way she walks
I touch myself can't get enough
And in the silence of the night
Through all the tears and all the lies
I touch myself and it's alright
Just give in, don't give up, baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me
Just know when that glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, yeah
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah, I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
I am as vain as I allow
I do my hair, I gloss my eyes
I touch myself all through the night
And when something falls out of place
I take my time, I put it back
I touch myself 'til I'm on track
Just give in, don't give up, baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me
Just know when that glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, yeah
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah, I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
So happy I could die and it's alright
So happy I could die and it's alright
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, ye-ha, ye-ha
Eh-eh, eh-eh, aha-aha
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah, I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend, yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds we'll be higher than ever, eh-eh, eh-eh
So happy I could die and it's alright
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IMO "I love that lavender blonde, The way she moves, the way she walks", This song is undoubtedly about her lesbian crush on a best friend, or someone close to her in the past. She touches herself at night because not only is the love not mutually reciprocated but it is a deep dark secret( "Through all the tears and all the lies." ) The singer is scared that the person she yearns for will not love her back or worse, disown her for her tabooed desires. Therefore, the only way she can deal with her accumulated hidden feelings is touching herself all through the night as she can not express her forbidden love to whomever she is talking about. When shes with her crush she is so happy she can die whilst abusing alcohol to alleviate the tremendous pain and stress she suffers. Bending the world away from reality.
I'd never really thought about it that way but now that I think about it, it seems very possible. I think Gaga wanted it to seem like it was only about alcohol, but really it's about something different.<br /> <br /> For example:<br /> <br /> "I love that lavender blond<br /> The way she moves, the way she walks<br /> I touch myself, can't get enough"<br /> <br /> This part is obviously about a girl with blond hair that she has a crush on<br /> <br /> <br /> "And in the silence of the night<br /> Through all the tears and all the lies,<br /> I touch myself and it's all right"<br /> <br /> She's crying because she has this internal secret of having a crush on a girl. She's saying it's a "lie" because maybe she doesn't even want to believe that it's true because she'd never thought she would be attracted to another girl<br /> <br /> <br /> "Just give in<br /> Don't give up baby<br /> Open up your heart and your mind to me"<br /> <br /> Tell the girl to open up herself so they can get to know each other. Or she could even be telling that to herself, like wanting to get to know herself better to see if she really likes this girl.<br /> <br /> <br /> "Just know when<br /> That glass is empty, that the world is gonna bend"<br /> <br /> This would be her time hanging out with her friend. Like whenever friends hang out with each other, but only "for a drink or two". She doesn't want the glass to empty because then she won't be with her friend anymore<br /> <br /> <br /> "Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine<br /> Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time<br /> Eh eh, so happy I could die"<br /> <br /> She's just with her friend, having a good time spending time with her.<br /> <br /> <br /> "Be your best friend yeah I love you forever,<br /> Up in the clouds we're both higher than ever<br /> Eh eh, so happy I could die<br /> And it's all right?"<br /> Same idea, they're just really good friend and are having a good time together, especially Gaga since she has her crush.<br /> <br /> <br /> "I am as vain as I allow<br /> I do my hair, I gloss my eyes<br /> I touch myself all through the night"<br /> <br /> This line could be that she finds herself attractive, but only enough so it's the sexy confidence that attracts others. By saying she is "as vain as she allows" she's acknowledging that she doesn't automatically assume that everyone she meets will fall in love with her, like her crush.<br /> <br /> <br /> "And when something falls out of place<br /> I take my time, I put it back<br /> I touch myself 'till I'm on track"<br /> <br /> I'm not really sure how this line fits in, but it could just mean that she likes everything to be perfect and might even go as far as to "plan" things ahead of time. Her yearning for another girl would not be something she had ever planned for herself.<br /> <br /> Then the song just repeats itself and stuff.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> So yeah, this is just an idea. But it could also relate to the whole "fear" theme because she is fearing liking another women, fearing this secret and others finding out, and fearing how the girl might feels towards her. It could even be a fear of love or commitment.<br /> <br />
"I am as vain as I allow<br /> I do my hair, I gloss my eyes<br /> I touch myself all through the night"<br /> <br /> Whilst earlier in the song "I touch myself", refers to masturbation. At this point, the meaning switches to "touching herself up", hair, dress, make-up.<br /> <br /> This is further highlighted in the following:<br /> <br /> "And when something falls out of place<br /> I take my time, I put it back<br /> I touch myself 'till I'm on track"<br /> <br /> "Something falls out of place" - her hair, or perhaps the penis that some would believe she has (joking).<br /> <br /> "I take my time, I put it back" - self-explanatory... hair etc.<br /> <br /> "I touch myself 'til (one 'L' not two, we're not talking about a cash till here), I'm on track" - she touches her hair etc. to put it back into place. <br /> <br /> This all refers to the vanity she aforementioned.
She's the Lavender Blonde. She sometimes wears a light purple wig. It was her Twitter avatar for the longest time. The song is about her fears of vanity and addiction.
This is song IS about narcissism.
"I am as vain as I allow I do my hair, I gloss my eyes I touch myself all through the night"
"I touch myself" means putting on make up and fixing her hair.
"I love that lavender blonde. The way she moves, the way she walks." I think she is referring to herself here. She loves that confidence she illuminates, even though she always doesn't feel that way.
I think all the lines about touching herself are her saying that (while under the influence of alcohol or drugs) all she needs is herself to feel good. It gives her that ability to not need anyone else besides that bottle.
"Just give in, Don't give up baby, Open up your heart and your mind to me." The temptation of the alcohol. "Just know when, That glass is empty, that the world is gonna bend" The world is not as good as it seems with alcohol. (that ones pretty self explanatory, haha)
The chorus, to me, is the feeling of being just plain drunk. The whole beat changes to a more slow, slurred beat. She feels up in the clouds, higher than life while drunk. That's why she's so happy she could die, the alcohol makes her feel that good.
Fear of Alcohol Monster, Fear of Addiction Monster. One of my favorites on the CD!
Lady Gaga seems to be showing a more insecure side on this new CD, and I love how she can be risky enough to do that. Considering she's known for being so confident, it's nice to see how she is in fact a real person.
@stripeypopcans 100% agreed with this, great comment
for me it's like a sequel of "just dance".. as long as i'm drunk everything's fine, i'm happy no matter what happens
i completely agree with "insy"'s idea that this song is like a continuation of Just Dance, except that this time, she's painting the drunkeness in a negative light. she's basically saying "you can get drunk and have all the fun you want, but keep in mind that the fun is superficial. you're in a different state of mind." while you're drinking, you're as happy as ever...but when you come down, the world truly bends.
i also see it being about the time when she was addicted to cocaine, and she recalled stories of sitting in front of the mirror doing her makeup for hours on end, sniffing up coke. i really think that the song is from the perspective of the old, drug addicted Gaga she was, talking to the sobered up Gaga and trying to persuade her to go back to where she used to be, and since alcohol can be a catalyst for addictions to come back, the song describes her paranoia about how alcohol can affect her. the one line that supports this theory most is "be your best friend, yeah, i'll love you forever. up in the clouds, we'll be higher than ever." it's basically the old Gaga saying that SHE'LL be Gaga's best friend, and they need nothing else but cocaine to coexist.
i find this profound. tell me what you think. ;)
I agree completely about the fear of addiction. Gaga has said herself that that is what the song's about, and that her relationship to alcohol and drugs is one of enjoyment but intense fear of the addictive state of mind it puts her in. At the same time though, I think there are other meanings..someone pointed out that she might have a crush on a girl that doesn't return the feelings..and I've always thought, and others think as well, that she is really talking about herself and the difference between the pre-Gaga Stefani, with her Monsters, and the fearless Gaga Fame Monster that she longs to be...who KNOWS!
very profound ;)
The song is about being insecure when she's herself, therefore she creates a persona (Lady GaGa) and feels like she's unstoppable when she's inebriated. She's in love with Lady GaGa, it helps her be who she wants to be.
The part about the addiction and alcohol could be true, but I also think that when she is talking about the "Lavender Blonde", she is probably referring to herself. Her twitter picture is a picture of her hair with light purple coloring in her hair. The "touching herself" refers to putting on make-up and making sure she looks perfect, so that she feels confident about herself to go out and drink and take part in those kinds of things, which may also be what she's afraid of.
"I am as vain as I allow I do my hair, I gloss my eyes I touch myself all through the night And when something falls out of place I take my time, I put it back I touch myself 'till I'm on track."
I think its completely different from being drunk and stuff. I think its about her being Stefani, and being bullied and insecure at school, and idolizing Gaga, making her feel ok. Stefani acts as a bullied teenager, like she was when she was at that age, and only feels better if she is doing something to do with Gaga.
-I love that lavender blonde, -The way she moves, the way she walks She loves Gagas hair, and how she dances, and moves, and walks.
Touching herself is about how Stefani touches herself over pictures of Gaga, and she feels alright when she does it.
-And in the silence of the night -Through all the tears and all the lies, -I touch myself and it's all right When she's crying herself to sleep at night, because of bullying, she gets out some pictures of Gaga, and touches herself, and feels better.
-Just give in -Don't give up baby Gaga's telling Stefani to just be yourself.
-Open up your heart and your mind to me Gaga telling Stefani that she can tell her anything.
-Just know when -That glass is empty, that the world is gonna bend. Eventually, Gaga is going to die, and Stefanis world is gonna bend.
-Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine -Stars in our eyes 'cause we're having a good time -Eh eh, so happy I could die Gaga being Stefanis red wine, shes having a good time, and shes very happy.
-Be your best friend yeah I love you forever, -Up in the clouds we're both higher than ever -Eh eh, so happy I could die -And it's all right Gaga is telling Stefani that they'll always be best friends, and they'll both be happy together.
-I am as vain as I allow -I do my hair, I gloss my eyes -I touch myself all through the night Stefani is dressing up as Gaga, by doing her hair and make-up like her, and then touching herself, as Gaga, therefore touching Gaga.
-And when something falls out of place -I take my time, I put it back -I touch myself 'till I'm on track And when her make-up gets smudges or something, she'll just fix it and put it back again, and touch herself again.
I don't think this is the real meaning of the song, but i think its a good interpretation of it :)
Triple meaning. Firstly She is the lavender blonde, She used to wear that wig alot. Talking about touching herself is a reference to putting on the makeup and the wigs and the outfits, but its also about doing work on herself; forgetting her insecurities and becoming brave, transforming from Stefani into Gaga. Secondly its about being in love with a girl and being uncertain what to do about it, trying to convince this girl (or even herself) to be open to a lesbian relationship. Thirdly its about addiction, cocaine, ecstacy and alcohol. She said about her drug use in an interview "I always did it alone, there was something about it that made me feel like i had a friend"
So Happy I Could Die... drugs are dangerous yall. Except marijuana, toke that shit freely :D
Fear of Addiction. (To drugs, a certain person, alcohol, etc.) Some of the song sounds like it's about herself and the other part sounds like it's about another woman. Perhaps it's about Lady Starlight, GaGa's best friend?
I think whatever's in her glass is trying to entice her into being best friends. The other woman here could be Brandy, Chardonnay, Baily, or Sherry.
"I love that lavender blond, the way she moves the way she walks. I touch myself can't get enough"<br /> <br /> Starlight is a brunette ;) ask the question if it's about a person on tumblr, and at least a third of your responses will say it's about Tara (her current makeup artist) because they're adorable together :P