Like a lot of the other comments are saying, I think this mainly about voyeurism. If the song was about his girlfriend, then why would he use the word spy. If you are a spy it means you shouldn't be caught, that is kind of the whole point, and if you are a voyeur, the whole point of the pleasure you get from it, is the fact that the other people don't know you are watching them. See a bit of a connection there?
Remember one Christmas I gave you Jim Carroll
Intended it as a cautionary tale
You said you saw yourself inside there
Docketed like a two manual
Remember one summer we walked in Times Square
I showed you the zombies with hundred-inch stares
You took a big, set your hotel on fire
We took the blame, took the bags to the train
Happy Birthday, Johnny
Wherever you are
Happy Birthday, Johnny
Wherever you are
The last time you called it was on New Years' Eve
You asked me for dough to get somethin' to eat
Since we last spoke, you live on the street
Yeah, I wouldn't believe all the shit that you've seen
Happy New Year, Johnny
Is it 23?
Happy New Year, Johnny
Are the lights on the trees?
When I said, "let me think," and you yelled through your teeth
Accused me of actin' like all royalty
Always for show, no true charity
You saw me on magazines and TV
But they only knew the real version of me
Only you know the secrets, the swamp, and the fear
What happened to blood, our family?
Annie, how could you do this to me?
Of course, I blame me
When you get free, Johnny
I hope you find peace
Intended it as a cautionary tale
You said you saw yourself inside there
Docketed like a two manual
Remember one summer we walked in Times Square
I showed you the zombies with hundred-inch stares
You took a big, set your hotel on fire
We took the blame, took the bags to the train
Happy Birthday, Johnny
Wherever you are
Happy Birthday, Johnny
Wherever you are
The last time you called it was on New Years' Eve
You asked me for dough to get somethin' to eat
Since we last spoke, you live on the street
Yeah, I wouldn't believe all the shit that you've seen
Happy New Year, Johnny
Is it 23?
Happy New Year, Johnny
Are the lights on the trees?
When I said, "let me think," and you yelled through your teeth
Accused me of actin' like all royalty
Always for show, no true charity
You saw me on magazines and TV
But they only knew the real version of me
Only you know the secrets, the swamp, and the fear
What happened to blood, our family?
Annie, how could you do this to me?
Of course, I blame me
When you get free, Johnny
I hope you find peace
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher, edited by WhoahVal
Happy Birthday, Johnny Lyrics as written by Jack Antonoff Annie Clark
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Hipgnosis Songs Group
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