Like a lot of the other comments are saying, I think this mainly about voyeurism. If the song was about his girlfriend, then why would he use the word spy. If you are a spy it means you shouldn't be caught, that is kind of the whole point, and if you are a voyeur, the whole point of the pleasure you get from it, is the fact that the other people don't know you are watching them. See a bit of a connection there?
I'm drunk
And right now I'm so in love with you
And I don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't do
Lay my hands on heaven and the sun and the moon and the stars
While the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car
Nothing quite like the feel of something new
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
This is the only time I really feel alive
This is the only time I really feel alive
I swear
I just found everything I need
The sweat in your eyes the blood in your veins are listening to me
Well I want to wrap it up and swim in it until I drown
My moral standing is lying down
Nothing quite like the feel of something new
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
This is the only time I really feel alive
This is the only time I really feel alive
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
(This is the only time I really feel alive)
And right now I'm so in love with you
And I don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't do
Lay my hands on heaven and the sun and the moon and the stars
While the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car
Nothing quite like the feel of something new
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
This is the only time I really feel alive
This is the only time I really feel alive
I swear
I just found everything I need
The sweat in your eyes the blood in your veins are listening to me
Well I want to wrap it up and swim in it until I drown
My moral standing is lying down
Nothing quite like the feel of something new
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
Maybe I'm all messed up
This is the only time I really feel alive
This is the only time I really feel alive
Maybe I'm all messed up in you
(This is the only time I really feel alive)
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This is the most underrated song of all time. Seriously it's like top 5 NiN songs
and as for the meaning.... uhhh kinda obvious
Once before performing the song live, a high as fuck Trent whispered "This... is a soooong.... about... FUCKING......" into the microphone very suggestively..... IT MUST BE ABOUT DRUGS!!!!!
i dont think he's drunk for real...he's drunk with infactuation for this new girl. being with someone for the first time feels so good you dont care about your morals. lust is a sin, and this song is clearly about lust. by commiting this sin he's not only nailng this chick in the back of his car...he's making love to the devil
I don't think you could be anymore right!
@jennifer555 nope the thing is it isnt a girl
I'm sure that this song is about sex with a new partner. With that said I think this is one song to play whenever you are with a possible new partner. She ofcoarse would have to be a little crazy and those are usually the best ones
This song makes me want to have sex...to Trent Reznor!
I think this song is about a one night stand. "and right now I'm so in love with you" One night stands are often looked down upon by society so "maybe I'm all messed up" explains his feelings towards his "moral standing" laying down. How can you get the feeling of something new with somone more than once? You can't. So you have to continue to find that feeling, so in these situations "this is the only time I really feel alive" I love the song, and seeing him preform it on the Closure concert tape just...hmm...do I really need to explain?
@andshedied Makes a lot of sense.
This song is probably about someone having his first homosexual experience despite being told that it's wrong. "I'm drunk / And right now I'm so in love with you" Lowered inhibitions. "And I don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't do" "While the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car" "My moral standing is lying down" "Maybe I'm all messed up /Maybe I'm all messed up in you" He's been taught by his religion that homosexuality is morally wrong. "This is the only time I really feel alive" "I swear / I just found everything I need" "Nothing quite like the feel of something new" He enjoys having sex with men, or at the very least, he enjoyed fucking that one guy at the back of his car.
Yeah, I got that feeling too. That's way better, saying the dude is the devil ;]
I see this as a kind of part deux to 'Kinda I Want To'.
Only one person has got that this is about getting drunk and having sex with a dude?!
COME ON PEOPLE! >_>
Well, a few of you ARE right, this song is about a homosexual experience that Trent had. But with who? Richard Patrick, his former guitarist and frontman of Filter. He wrote the song about their drunken sexual experience.
I love the bass riff!
This song is one of the top 3 songs on PHM. Why the hell haven't more people commented on it. Has anyone seen the "Closure" video. It has a killer live performance of this song.