So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I don't eat I just devour
Everyone in every hour
All is me, is all I need and that's all that I care
Propelled through all this madness
By your beauty and my sadness
I'll never change or rearrange
'Till I've finished what I've started
And life leads me here
It shows me, I have never really loved no one but me
Like the time, you slipped through my hands
I'll never understand
Why I'm such a selfish man
Walk around me not before me
I'll pretend not to ignore ye
But I'll compromise if I realize you can do something for me
I'm ugly and you know it
But you think that I'm a poet
So I'll keep the rhyme if I feel in time
It gets me where I'm going
And life leads me here
It shows me, I have never really loved no one but me
Like the time, you slipped through my hands
And I'll never understand
No, I'll never understand
Why I'm such a selfish man
All I heard was an unearthly silence
Apart from the violence, explode in my head
Where all at once was this moment of beauty
No more since it slew me, no never again, again, again
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
No, I'll never understand
No, I'll never understand
Why I'm such a selfish man
Selfish man, selfish man, selfish man, selfish man, selfish man
Everyone in every hour
All is me, is all I need and that's all that I care
Propelled through all this madness
By your beauty and my sadness
I'll never change or rearrange
'Till I've finished what I've started
And life leads me here
It shows me, I have never really loved no one but me
Like the time, you slipped through my hands
I'll never understand
Why I'm such a selfish man
Walk around me not before me
I'll pretend not to ignore ye
But I'll compromise if I realize you can do something for me
I'm ugly and you know it
But you think that I'm a poet
So I'll keep the rhyme if I feel in time
It gets me where I'm going
And life leads me here
It shows me, I have never really loved no one but me
Like the time, you slipped through my hands
And I'll never understand
No, I'll never understand
Why I'm such a selfish man
All I heard was an unearthly silence
Apart from the violence, explode in my head
Where all at once was this moment of beauty
No more since it slew me, no never again, again, again
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
No, I'll never understand
No, I'll never understand
Why I'm such a selfish man
Selfish man, selfish man, selfish man, selfish man, selfish man
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Selfish Man Lyrics as written by David R King Bridget A Regan
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I LOVE THIS SONG! FLOGGING MOLLY RULES!
this song is greatness... it made me realize that i'm a v. selfish person... really...
fuck! I thought i invented that word! (biznatch)
Sorry, i got carried away... I apologize to the mods... i won't fu..... do it again.
haha biznatch
dude, thanks to whoever posted this.. i could never understand 90% of the words they were saying with their accents.
Well im glad someone appreciated my biznatch. Oh, and if you know who Jhonen Vasquez is post something here. Kudos to my own prison. Creed=not for me
My friend got punched in the nose during this song. Good memories indeed. Meeting them was also interesting too.
Their accents rule!!!, but only true people that are from those islands and understand them 90% percent of the time. and myownprison333, everyone goes fucking crazy sometimes, dont fucking apologize for having a fucking a good time, also this song fucking rules!
gosh, i love the enthuasm of it all. in fact, kabooks, if i ever run into you in real life while we're listening to this song, i'll let you punch me in the face, i love it so much.