NO HALO
BEDROOM - BROCKHAMPTON Lyrics
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If I gotta take the high road, I'm rollin'
I ain't tryna get like all up in your head again, Montana, 'Lanta
Maybe I should just go mosey my ass over to your house
What about the sight of you up on the couch, so cozy, lowly lit
Like rosy cheeks, oh you so cozy with somebody else
Get nervous, my stomach churning, burning
Late night corner, we pass
Lick that Swisher, get red
Used to skip rocks 'round that bend
We don't go there no more
We don't see sun no more
Baby wanna raid the whole apartment like the FBI
Takin' everything, from pots and pans, to fans and Goldeneye
Everything 'cept the dog
Everything in the drawers
Used to be so perfect, but it's never gettin' solved
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my eyes go red
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my, no one help when my-
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my eyes go red
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my, no one help when my-
Do I matter? I'm ecstatic, I'm depressed
More like God's special mess, never had no halo
Trippy, I can barely hike it out of bed
Time bomb under it, persuading you to hop in
Hmm, options, runnin' out of options
Hmm, options, used to have options
Hmm, options, runnin' out of options
Hmm, options, used to have options
I don't know where I'm goin'
If I gotta take the high road, I'm rollin'
I don't know where I'm goin'
If I gotta take the high road, I'm rollin'
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my eyes go red
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my, no one help when my-
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my eyes go red
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my, no one help when my-
Used to fight all my night terrors, now I smoke through the dreams
Depression put me into places where I'm stuck in the seams
They seal my mouth, and said the only way to breathe is to scream
Pop the stitches from society and fall to my knees
The machines weavin' our fate are gettin' harder to please
But I believe to an extreme
(And we all can find a way)
To anybody listenin', that's in between
(And we all can find a way)
Went to church for the hell of it, stumbled in drunk as shit
Been goin' through it again
Been talkin' to myself, wonderin' who I am, been thinkin', I am better than Him
In times like these, I just need to believe it's all part of a plan
Lost a part of me, but I am still here
Wash it out of all of me to feel the fire (maybe, I been gone for a minute)
But you know, you know that's a lie (no one help me when my eyes go)
Wash it out of all of me to feel the fire (maybe, I been gone for a minute)
But you know, you know that's a lie (no one help me when my eyes go)
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my eyes go red
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my, no one help when my-
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my eyes go red
I'm sure I'll find it
No one help me when my, no one help when my
In "NO HALO" by BROCKHAMPTON, the lyrics describe feelings of uncertainty, longing, and self-doubt. The opening lines "I don't know where I'm goin', If I gotta take the high road, I'm rollin'" depict a sense of aimlessness and the willingness to take risks. The singer is unsure of their path and is ready to embrace the unknown.
The following lines "I ain't tryna get like all up in your head again, Montana, 'Lanta, Maybe I should just go mosey my ass over to your house" suggest a longing for someone's presence and a desire for connection. The use of specific locations, Montana and Atlanta, adds a layer of nostalgia and longing. The singer contemplates visiting this person to experience a cozy and intimate moment, but realization hits as it becomes evident that they are with someone else. This realization elicits feelings of jealousy and discomfort, as expressed through the lines "Get nervous, my stomach churning, burning, I'm beat, ready to knock some teeth out of his ass."
The lyrics also delve into themes of loss and dissatisfaction. Lines like "We don't go there no more, We don't see sun no more" indicate that a sense of happiness and contentment has been lost, creating a feeling of longing for the past. The singer reflects on the deterioration of a relationship, symbolized by raiding the apartment like the FBI, taking everything except the dog. This imagery represents the desire to erase all traces of a failed relationship.
The chorus of the song explores feelings of detachment and self-reliance. The recurring lines "I'm sure I'll find it, No one help me when my eyes go red" suggest a belief that one can find their way without assistance. The reference to eyes turning red could be interpreted as a metaphor for moments of vulnerability or deep emotions. The singer acknowledges that they are responsible for their own journey and no one else can provide the necessary guidance or support.
The second and third verses broach the subject of mental health struggles. The lyrics allude to depression and the challenges of coping with it. The lines "Used to fight all my night terrors, now I smoke through the dreams, Depression put me into places where I'm stuck in the seams" describe using smoking and escapism to cope with the overwhelming feelings caused by depression. The singer feels silenced and pushed to the edge while society continues to pressure them. However, amidst these struggles, there is still a belief that there is hope, as reflected in the lines "And we all can find a way, To anybody listenin', that's in between."
The song concludes with a reflective tone, expressing a desire for faith and self-acceptance. The lyrics mention attending church, being drunk, and questioning one's identity and worth compared to a higher power. This introspective moment leads to the realization that despite having lost a part of oneself, they are still here and capable of growth and self-discovery.
Overall, "NO HALO" offers a glimpse into the complex emotions of uncertainty, longing, self-doubt, and mental health struggles. It explores the yearning for connection, the difficulties of navigating relationships, and the importance of finding one's own path in the face of adversity.
Line by Line Meaning
I don't know where I'm goin'
I'm uncertain about my future and direction in life
If I gotta take the high road, I'm rollin'
If I have to choose the more difficult path, I'll embrace it
I ain't tryna get like all up in your head again, Montana, 'Lanta
I don't want to intrude on your thoughts and emotions like I did before, whether it's in Montana or Atlanta
Maybe I should just go mosey my ass over to your house
Perhaps I should casually visit your house
What about the sight of you up on the couch, so cozy, lowly lit
What if I see you comfortably and intimately with someone else on the couch, in a cozy and dimly lit setting
Like rosy cheeks, oh you so cozy with somebody else
You look so content and affectionate with another person, like your cheeks are flushed with happiness
Get nervous, my stomach churning, burning
I become anxious, my stomach feels unsettled and painful
I'm beat, ready to knock some teeth out of his ass
I'm exhausted, but I'm prepared to physically confront the person who's involved with you
Late night corner, we pass
We used to spend time together in a secluded corner during late nights
Lick that Swisher, get red
Smoke a Swisher cigarillo and become high
Used to skip rocks 'round that bend
We used to play and skip rocks in that particular area
We don't go there no more
We don't visit that place anymore
We don't see sun no more
We no longer experience happiness or brightness in our lives
Baby wanna raid the whole apartment like the FBI
My lover wants to search the entire apartment extensively, just like how the FBI carries out investigations
Takin' everything, from pots and pans, to fans and Goldeneye
Taking away everything, from kitchen utensils to cooling fans and even the video game Goldeneye
Everything 'cept the dog
Taking everything except the dog
Everything in the drawers
Taking everything that's inside the drawers
Used to be so perfect, but it's never gettin' solved
Our relationship used to seem flawless, but it can never be repaired or resolved
Do I matter? I'm ecstatic, I'm depressed
Do I have any significance? I feel both extremely happy and utterly depressed
More like God's special mess, never had no halo
I'm more like a unique and flawed creation of God, never having the purity or perfection represented by a halo
Trippy, I can barely hike it out of bed
I'm overwhelmed, it's difficult for me to even get out of bed
Time bomb under it, persuading you to hop in
There's a ticking time bomb of emotional turmoil, tempting you to join in
Hmm, options, runnin' out of options
I'm running out of choices and possibilities
Used to have options
I used to have different alternatives and opportunities
Went to church for the hell of it, stumbled in drunk as shit
I attended church without a genuine purpose, entering while intoxicated
Been goin' through it again
I've been facing difficult times once more
Been talkin' to myself, wonderin' who I am, been thinkin', I am better than Him
I've been engaging in self-reflection, questioning my identity, and even believing that I'm superior to God
In times like these, I just need to believe it's all part of a plan
During moments like these, I simply need to have faith that everything is a planned and predetermined sequence of events
Lost a part of me, but I am still here
I've lost a part of myself due to my experiences, but I'm still surviving and existing
Wash it out of all of me to feel the fire (maybe, I been gone for a minute)
I want to cleanse myself of negative emotions to experience passion and intensity once again (perhaps, I've been absent for a while)
But you know, you know that's a lie (no one help me when my eyes go)
But deep down, you know that statement is false (no one assists me when I'm in a vulnerable state)
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Ciaran McDonald, Dominique Simpson, Ian Simpson, Jabari Manwarring, Matthew Garrett Champion, Romil Hemnani, Russell Evan Boring, Ryan Beatty, William Anku Kraka Mawuli Ando Wood
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