Sober
EKOH Lyrics

Yeah, feeling sick again
Starting the song off by acknowledging that the singer is once again feeling ill due to alcohol.

Swore the last time was the last time
He made a promise to himself to not let alcohol take control over him again, but it looks like he broke that promise.

But look at me on a slip again
Despite making the promise, the singer finds himself slipping back into drinking again.

Wish I was different but it's always the same
The singer recognizes that he has a problem with alcohol and wishes that he could change, but he always ends up going back to drinking.

So strained a feeling of that withdrawal pain
The pain of withdrawal is something that the singer can feel physically - it's a painful experience to go through.

And all my friends they don't understand
The people around him might not realize the extent of his alcohol problem or how difficult it is to quit.

It's been a minute since you got a bag, maybe it wasn't that bad
His friends might think that he's overreacting and that he never really had a real problem in the first place.

And you can just have one now
His friends might be pressuring him to have just one drink, but he knows that he can't control himself around alcohol.

And I'll be taking one balloon so high I'll never come down
If he gives into the pressure and has just one drink, he knows that he'll end up taking more and more until he's completely out of control.

So wake me when it's over, I got to try to fix this
The singer knows he needs to fix his alcohol problem and hopes to wake up from this cycle of addiction soon.

I'll call you when I'm sober or when I'm not resistant
He'll reach out to his loved ones when he's able to be honest and clear-headed about his struggle with alcohol.

I'm sorry that you love me, I know you hate it
The singer is aware of the toll his addiction is taking on those who care about him and apologizes for it.

F*cked up when I stopped being grateful and got complacent
He recognizes that his addiction is a result of taking things for granted and becoming too comfortable with his situation.

I'm only high cuz I been feeling this low
He started drinking to cope with feelings of depression and anxiety, and now he's addicted and can't stop.

And that's the only way to make it back to normal I suppose
Alcohol has become the only way for him to feel normal because he doesn't know how to deal with his emotions in any other way.

And I know you think I'm perfect but all of that's a facade
His loved ones might see him as someone who has it all together, but the truth is he's struggling with addiction and putting on a front.

And trying to hide how I've been feeling is lonelier than I thought
Putting up a front and hiding his true feelings is a lonely and isolating experience.

So put the bottle down, I really don't trust what I do
He recognizes that he's not in control around alcohol and knows that he needs to put it down for good.

I make the worst decisions sober, that's the f*cking truth
Even when he's not drinking, he still makes bad choices that contribute to his problems.

Cuz I don't take the first hit when I'm already blitzed
He knows that he can't handle just one drink when he's already drunk, he'll end up drinking more and more.

I take it clear-headed uncomfortable in my f*cking skin
He's aware that he drinks to numb his emotions and that he's uncomfortable in his own skin when he's not drunk.

You don't know what I've done
He's aware that his loved ones might not know the extent of his alcohol problem or what he's done while under the influence.

I swear to god that if you did
If they did know, it would likely break their heart.

Then your heart would be broken into a million pieces
Knowing the truth about his addiction would be devastating to those who care about him.

Had it all but I lost it in a blink
He had everything he wanted, but his addiction caused him to lose it all in a moment.

Afraid to ask for help cuz I'm afraid of what you think
He's afraid to reach out for help because he's worried about how his loved ones will react to his addiction.

Mama I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
The singer is apologizing to his mother for not being able to stay sober.

Daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
He's apologizing to his father for the mess he's made while drunk.

To the ones who never left me we've been down this road before
He's thankful for the people in his life who have stood by him even though this isn't the first time he's dealt with addiction.

I can't do this all on my own
He knows he needs help to overcome his addiction.

You're never too far gone to come back home
He wants to remind himself and others that no matter how bad things get, it's never too late to seek help and start over.