Numb
Phora Lyrics
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I've been feelin' like someone else lately
It's prolly this empty Colt 45 that's numbing the pain inside
'Cause truthfully I ain't felt lately
I'm still a sinner, I'm losing myself, I need a sign
I needed space, I needed love, I needed time
And I never understood how you could treat me so heartless
Until I realized that you just needed mine
'Cause I just can't decide between loving you or myself
I just pushed away 'cause I drew a line and you crossed it
Crossing out my exes and ex-ing out all my loses, I know
What it's like to lose somebody you love
And I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs
And I know what it's like to have to let go of someone
'Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was
They won't ever feel what I feel
In a world so fake I just need something that's real
I've been dying to live, the devil's shooting to kill
I just can't help but wonder if you think of me still
See, I've been losing my mind
I've been losing everybody I believed in
Anxiety is suffocating me, I'm barely breathing
I'm coping with the pain
Hoping that the rain just stops 'cause it reminds me of the day you said you leaving
We always seem to run from those that love us the most
And we never open up because we scared to get close
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts
'Cause you left me when I needed you most
I said we always seem to run from those that love us the most
And never open up because we scared to get close
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts, we just hoping that it lasts
'Cause I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
Yeah, I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
Yeah, I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
The lyrics to Phora's song "Numb" portray the pain and struggle of coping with loss and addiction. Phora admits to feeling like a different person and being consumed by the empty numbness brought on by alcohol. He acknowledges his sins and confesses that he is lost and in need of a sign. Phora describes his difficulty choosing between loving someone he lost and loving himself. He had to draw a line and push away, even if it meant letting go of someone he loved. He also expresses the fear of opening up and getting too close to people because it might hurt more when they leave. The pain that comes with loss is so overwhelming that one might feel suffocated and barely breathing, as Phora describes his experience with anxiety.
The chorus of the song repeats that Phora knows what it's like to lose a loved one and to lose oneself to addiction. The repetition emphasizes the theme of loss, and the fact that Phora repeats the statement indicates that he is still struggling to come to terms with his grief and can't seem to escape it. Overall, "Numb" is a powerful song that speaks to the human experience of love, loss, addiction, and the difficulties of healing and moving on.
Line by Line Meaning
Look, I know I ain't been myself lately
I am aware that my recent behavior is not a reflection of my usual self
I've been feelin' like someone else lately
My recent actions and thoughts are not characteristic of who I usually am
It's prolly this empty Colt 45 that's numbing the pain inside
Alcohol is providing momentary relief from emotional pain
'Cause truthfully I ain't felt lately
I have not been able to feel genuine emotions lately
I'm still a sinner, I'm losing myself, I need a sign
I am struggling with personal flaws, and am losing a sense of myself, hoping for guidance
I needed space, I needed love, I needed time
I required time and affection to heal myself
And I never understood how you could treat me so heartless
I didn't comprehend how someone who I deeply cared for could hurt me so severely
Until I realized that you just needed mine
I came to the realization that the person who mistreated me was actually needing my attention and care
That's what I mean by "loving you never helps"
By expressing affection towards you, I am unable to navigate my feelings and prioritize my own well-being
'Cause I just can't decide between loving you or myself
I am torn between caring for someone else and prioritizing my own mental and emotional health
I just pushed away 'cause I drew a line and you crossed it
I intentionally distanced myself because you violated my personal boundaries
Crossing out my exes and ex-ing out all my loses, I know
I am consciously removing negative individuals from my life, including my past mistakes and losses
What it's like to lose somebody you love
I am familiar with the pain of losing someone who I deeply care for
And I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs
I understand how substances can cause one to lose a sense of self
And I know what it's like to have to let go of someone
I have experienced the difficulty of letting go of someone who has caused harm
'Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was
The pain caused by an individual has had a lasting impact on my identity
They won't ever feel what I feel
The person who caused me harm cannot fully comprehend the extent of my pain
In a world so fake I just need something that's real
Amid a society that is superficial, I desire authenticity and reality
I've been dying to live, the devil's shooting to kill
I am experiencing a strong desire for life, but fighting against negative thoughts and struggles
I just can't help but wonder if you think of me still
I am curious if the person who hurt me thinks about me at all
See, I've been losing my mind
I am gradually losing my sense of mental stability
I've been losing everybody I believed in
Those who I placed my trust in, have slowly disappeared from my life
Anxiety is suffocating me, I'm barely breathing
My anxiety is overwhelming me, making it difficult to breathe properly
I'm coping with the pain
I am attempting to manage and navigate through my emotional pain
Hoping that the rain just stops 'cause it reminds me of the day you said you leaving
I am hoping for a change of circumstances that would no longer remind me of the day you left me
We always seem to run from those that love us the most
We tend to shy away from individuals who deeply care for us
And we never open up because we scared to get close
Our fear of rejection and hurt prevents us from sharing our innermost thoughts and feelings with others
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts
We are utilizing distractions and substances to avoid confronting our past and present difficulties
'Cause you left me when I needed you most
You abandoned me during a time where I was most vulnerable and in need of support
I said we always seem to run from those that love us the most
Once again, we tend to withdraw from those who have the most affection for us
And never open up because we scared to get close
Our trepidation regarding emotional vulnerability prevents us from opening up to others
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts, we just hoping that it lasts
We are avoiding our past issues, using substances to manage emotional pain, and hoping that these remedies persist
'Cause I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
I have experienced how painful it is to lose someone who you love deeply
I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
I have personally grappled with addiction and its impact on my sense of identity
Yeah, I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
Once again, I have gone through the emotional turmoil of losing someone who is dear to me
I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
I have experienced the personal struggle of addiction and its effects on my sense of self
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: MARCO ARCHER
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[Verse]
Look, I know I ain't been myself lately
I've been feelin' like someone else lately
It's prolly this empty Colt 45 that's numbing the pain inside
'Cause truthfully I ain't felt lately
I'm still a sinner, I'm losing myself, I need a sign
I needed space, I needed love, I needed time
And I never understood how you could treat me so heartless
Until I realized that you just needed mine
That's what I mean by "loving you never helps"
'Cause I just can't decide between loving you or myself
I just pushed away cause I drew a line and you crossed it
Crossing out my exes and ex-ing out all my loses, I know
What it's like to lose somebody you love
And I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs
And I know what it's like to have to let go of someone
'Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was
They won't ever feel what I feel
In a world so fake I just need something that's real
I've been dying to live, the devil's shooting to kill
I just can't help but wonder if you think of me still
See, I've been losing my mind
I've been losing everybody I believed in
Anxiety is suffocating me, I'm barely breathing
I'm coping with the pain
Hoping that the rain just stops cause it reminds me of the day you said you leaving
We always seem to run from those that love us the most
And we never open up because we scared to get close
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts
'Cause you left me when I needed you most
I said we always seem to run from those that love us the most
And never open up because we scared to get close
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts, we just hoping that it lasts
[Outro]
'Cause I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
Yeah, I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
Yeah, I know what it's like to lose a person you love in
@disloyal
"Look, I know I ain't been myself lately, I've been feeling like someone else lately,
It's probably this empty Colt 45 that's numbing the pain inside, 'cause truthfully I ain't felt lately,
I'm still a sinner, I'm losing myself, I need a sign, I needed space, I needed love, I needed time,
And I never understood how you could treat me so heartless until I realized that you just needed mine,
That's what I mean by loving you never helps, 'cause I just can't decide between loving you and myself,
I just pushed away 'cause I drew a line and you crossed it, crossing out my exes and X-ing out all my losses,
I know what it's like to lose somebody you love, and I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs,
And I know what it's like to have let go of someone 'cause they hurt you so bad that you not the person you was,
But they won't ever feel what I feel, in a world so fake, I just need something that's real,
I been dying to live, the devil's shooting to kill, I just can't help but wonder whether you think of me still,
See, I've been losing my mind, I've been losing everybody I believed in, anxiety is suffocating me, I'm barely breathing,
I'm coping with the pain, hoping that the rain just stops 'cause it reminds me of the day you said you leaving,
We always seem to run from those who love us the most, and we never open up because we scared to get close,
We running from the past, and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts, 'cause you left me when I needed you most,
I said, we always seem to run from those who love us the most, we never open up because we scared to get close,
We running from the past, and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts, we just hoping that it lasts ...
'Cause I know what it's like to lose a person you loving, I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know,
Yeah, I know what it's like to lose a person you loving, I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know,
Yeah, I know what it's like to lose a person you loving ..."
Yours Truly
Phora
@XxxILoveNinjasxxX
You know you're listening to this at your lowest point when it doesnt make you cry like it always did. You just sit there without feeling a damn thing, wishing you could feel anything at all. Anything
@septbaaby
I'm feeling too much
@PanicAtTheCrybaby
i love you
@danielmejia5519
Bruh
@masteroziel4879
Anything
@SkeidaDJ
You having this chat with me...
@Nliag266
Is no one gonna talk about how much emotion his voice has here?👌👏
@roxannedestiny5676
fml yeah I can hear the hurt in his voice and I can feel it it’s so sad
@brockweaver346
Check out sinner pt 2..... So much raw emotion in that one too
@aricarobenolt1156
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