In My Eyez
Phora Lyrics

Yeah, all this pressure been getting to me lately
The stress and expectations that come with my success have been weighing heavily on me recently

I just feel like everything changed, look
I sense that a lot has shifted around me, and I'm struggling to adapt

She said I pray for you
She expressed her concern for me and asked for blessings on my behalf

She said I love you, but I need to stay away from you, uh
She cares for me deeply, but recognizes that our relationship may not be healthy

Nothing ever stays the way it was
Change is an inevitable part of life

Loved you 'til I had nothing left
I gave all of myself to you in our relationship

I just needed time to find myself
I required space to discover who I truly am

Needed more but you gave me less
I desired greater support and affection, but you couldn't provide it

Even dealt with all this pain for you
I endured a great deal of emotional suffering on your behalf

Promised you I'd stay the same for you
I made a commitment to maintain my identity and values for you

Now I'm losing everything I love and you say you want me to change for you, wait
Despite my dedication, I'm experiencing significant losses, and you now demand that I become someone else entirely

I would never switch on myself just to be accepted by everybody else, look
I refuse to compromise my authenticity in order to fit in with societal expectations

Everybody fake, everybody two faced, everybody in it for themselves, uh
I perceive many people as disingenuous and driven purely by self-interest

Everything fake to me, everyone a snake to me, all they ever wanna do is take from me
I struggle to trust others and believe that they only want to exploit me

They say everybody needs someone, I just need everyone to stay the fuck away from me, look
While the conventional wisdom holds that we all require companionship, I would prefer that people leave me alone

They're telling me be careful who you love
Others caution me to choose my romantic partners wisely

These days everything numb
I'm finding it difficult to experience any real emotion or connection

And sometimes, the person you would take a bullet for is standing right behind the gun
The person you love can sometimes be the one to hurt you the most

Maybe I just wasn't worth it to you
Perhaps you didn't value me as much as I valued you

Maybe I just wasn't perfect for you
Maybe I didn't meet your expectations or needs

Truth is we could never work 'cause you just wanted me to be a different person for you, fuck
Ultimately, our relationship was doomed because you wanted me to fundamentally change who I am

It's been like four months of going in circles, I know
It feels like I've been stuck in the same cycle of conflict and confusion for a long time

But I'm a bit scarred, tryna figure out which way to go
I'm feeling wounded and uncertain about how to navigate my situation

We could've had a fucking blast, yeah, yeah
Our relationship had the potential to be amazing and exciting

But I was tripping on the past, yeah, yeah
I was preoccupied with what had happened before and unable to fully embrace the present

Lately I've been feeling stuck, down in the dumps, might need to jump
I'm currently experiencing a sense of helplessness and depression, and may need to take drastic action to move forward

Miss me with that "where were you, when I needed you" look, baby I'd be gone
I don't want to hear any attempts at reconciliation or pity from someone who was absent when I needed them

It's gon' be a long time 'fore I'm home
It's going to take a while for me to feel comfortable and secure again

Looking at this shit from different sides
I'm trying to view my situation objectively and from multiple perspectives

Try not to pick a side
I'm attempting to remain impartial and not choose between competing interests

Ain't no more switching sides
I've decided to commit to one perspective and not change my mind again

Made it a mission
I'm on a mission to achieve a specific goal or objective

I know you wanna stay away
I understand that you feel it's necessary to distance yourself from me

Considering the stakes
Given how high the stakes are, I can't blame you

I thought that you could take it
I believed that you were capable of dealing with the challenges of our relationship

It's crazy how it all pans out
It's remarkable how unexpected twists and turns can nonetheless result in a pattern or outcome

Tryna carry all my plans out
I'm attempting to manage and execute all of my plans and goals

Wanna get the last dance out
I want to achieve something meaningful before everything comes to an end

But she won't even stick her hand out
The person I care about won't help me or offer support