Sinner Pt. 2
Phora Lyrics

Yeah
Expression of agreement or affirmation

I just can't take this pressure no more
Feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope with stress and demands

Why I feel like I've been in this place before
Sense of deja vu or familiarity with current situation

I just can't take no more
Reiteration of being unable to handle any more pressure or stress

I just can't smile like I'm still me, I just can't fake no more
Being unable to keep up a facade or pretend to be someone they're not

I try to be all I can but that wasn't enough for them
Feeling like they've made an effort to meet expectations but still falling short

We can't find love so we replace it with these drugs again
Turning to substance abuse to fill the void of lacking love and connection

I drink from this bottle dog it's my only friend
Finding solace in alcohol to cope with loneliness and pain

I'm so scared to be alone again
Fear of being left alone with thoughts and feelings

Fake smile on my face
Pretending to be happy when feeling the opposite

I just can't keep pretending like I don't pretend
Acknowledging that the act of pretending is taking a toll and can no longer be sustained

And my little homie’s doing twenty five
A friend or acquaintance serving a long prison sentence

If God exists why he never try
Questioning the existence and actions of a higher power

To show us that this life is more than pain
Wishing for a sign or proof that life has more to offer than just suffering

'Cause is hard to live when you’re dead inside
Feeling emotionally numb and detached from life

And they say I’m worthless 'cause I ain’t a Christian
Being judged and devalued for not conforming to a specific religion

Like turn a church into a fucking business
Criticism of religious institutions prioritizing profit over true spiritual guidance

They killed Jehovah, didn't leave a witness
Metaphorical reference to the absence of justice, truth and righteousness

And these preachers crooked as these politicians
Comparison of religious leaders with corrupt politicians

Politics, religion, I don’t see the difference
Believe that both institutions are equally flawed and misguided

They crucify me 'cause I’m speaking different
Faced with criticism and rejection for expressing unique thoughts and ideas

Who the fuck are they to judge?
Questioning the authority and righteousness of those who judge and criticize

Tell me you or you to criticize the way I’m living
Asserting the right to live life on their own terms without external judgment

40 ounces for the pain
Drinking to cope with emotional pain

I ain’t been the same since I’ve seen my pops cry
Traumatized by seeing a father figure express vulnerability and emotion

I might be light skin to you
Acknowledging that people may judge or treat them differently based on physical appearance

But I’m still a nigga in the cops eyes
Regardless of skin color, viewed with suspicion and threat by law enforcement

They ain't stopping til' we all die
Feeling targeted and persecuted by systemic oppression and violence

Mama I just hope you understand
Addressing a mother figure with a plea for empathy and compassion

I just couldn’t take the pressure
Admitting to being overwhelmed and unable to handle stress and demands

Mama, see I tried my best to be a better man
Acknowledging efforts to improve oneself and be a good person

And you might know my story dawg, but
Implying that people may think they know their struggles but truly don't understand the depth of their pain

You won't ever know my pain and
Emphasizing the unique and personal nature of their suffering

She was all I needed now this
Lost a significant other or loved one who was their source of support and comfort

Bottle is my Novocain
Reliance on alcohol as a numbing agent for emotional and physical pain

Trying not to go insane now
Struggling to maintain mental stability and avoid losing control

Trying not to go insane now
Reiterating the struggle to keep it together mentally

They say lately I ain't been the same
Others have noticed a change in behavior and demeanor

But they won't ever know my pain
Feeling like others can't truly understand their individual suffering

I just never really show my pain (show my pain)
Hiding or suppressing their pain and emotions from others

Man I can't feel nothing no more
Numbness and inability to experience emotions

Fake love don't cut it no more
Tired of insincere and shallow relationships lacking genuine care and connection

Homie, I've been drinking so much
Heavy alcohol consumption to cope with emotional pain

Nothing staying in my stomach no more
Physical symptom of excessive drinking and substance abuse

I can't even feel the pain inside
Numbness to emotional and physical pain

I can't keep living in a lie
Realizing that they can no longer continue living a dishonest or inauthentic life

Yeah, I might be breathing just like everybody else
Appear to be functioning on the surface but feel deeply disconnected and unhappy

But I still don't feel alive
Sense of emptiness and absence of joy or meaning in life

Every night man, I hear a pistol poppin'
Witnessing or hearing about gun violence and its impact on their mental health

Make me feel like God ain't really watching
Doubts of the presence and love of a higher power in the face of violence and suffering

Watch out for the snakes, they steady plottin'
Warning about being vigilant against malicious and manipulative individuals

They wanna put you in a cage or in a coffin'
Conveying a sense of danger and fear from external threats and dangers

Nowadays, these cops just wanna kill
Anger and frustration towards law enforcement and perceived abuse of power

No love in the streets, don't wanna feel
Feeling disconnected and cut off from a sense of community or belonging

What I felt when I heard my lil' brother passed
Grief and pain from losing a family member or loved one

I'll never get him back, but yo I still
Coming to terms with the painful reality of loss

Know his soul is still roamin' on the streets
Belief that a departed loved one's spirit lives on in their community and surroundings

Now I just hope he's watching over me
Expressing a desire for guidance and protection from a departed loved one

Now I just keep on praying, I've been trynna' talk to God but these demons never leave
Turning to prayer as a source of comfort and guidance but feeling like internal struggles persist

I know I lost myself along the way
Realization that they've lost their sense of identity and purpose

I was just too scared to fade away
Fear of losing oneself entirely and being forgotten

Now they all keep begging me to stay
Pressure and obligation to continue living despite inner turmoil and pain

But I can't be here another day
Wishing to escape the pain and turmoil of life

So I drink from this bottle til' I feel numb again
Reverting to substance abuse as a coping mechanism

I've been tempted by these drugs again
Vulnerability to addiction and spiraling back into substance abuse

Momma told me she just wanna see her son again
Enduring pain of losing touch with family and loved ones

I just wanna see her smile again
Missing the joy and connection that comes from loved ones' happiness

I don't ever wanna see her cry
Avoiding the pain and guilt of causing loved ones emotional turmoil

So I lie and say that I'm okay, but
Feeling like they need to conceal their true emotions and pain to protect others

I've been plottin' on my suicide
Struggling with suicidal ideation and thoughts of self-harm

My pain
A recurring theme throughout the song expressing their deep emotional and physical suffering

I just don't show my pain (show my pain)
Final line reiterating the theme of hiding and suppressing pain and emotions