Melly’s career initially started to take off in 2018 when singles such as “Virtual (Blue Balenciagas)”, “Butter Pecan”, and “772 Love” had begun to gain popularity alongside “Murder on My Mind.”
On August 3, 2018, Melly released his debut mixtape I AM YOU which included his popular single, “Murder on My Mind”. It also included a sequel to the song called “Mind on My Murder”.
After leaving the studio with companions YNW Bortlen, YNW SakChaser, and YNW Juvy, on the night of October 26, 2018, Melly and his friends had been caught in a drive-by-shooting where SakChaser and Juvy were murdered. Melly and Bortlen were the only survivors of the attack.
While working on his sophomore mixtape, after the death of his friends, Melly had gained more attention and began to obtain cosigns from several rappers such as Young Thug, Trippie Redd, and Kodak Black. However, on January 3, 2019, Melly was arrested for possession of marijuana.
On January 18, 2019, while incarcerated, Melly released his sophomore mixtape We All Shine, which included one of his most influential cosign’s, Kanye West who was a feature on the song “Mixed Personalities.”.
Melly was released from jail on January 25, 2019, and released “Gang”, the first day out single that had taken off after the hype around “Mixed Personalities.”
After being released for only a month, on February 13, 2019, Melly turned himself in after a warrant was put out for him and Bortlen connecting to the murders of YNW Sakchaser and YNW Juvy. YNW Melly posted this to his Instagram on February 13:
To all my fans and supporters no I did not get locked up in Washington , but I am turning myself in today I want you guys to know I love you and appreciate every single one of y'all, a couple months ago I lost my two brothers by violence and now the system want to find justice.. unfortunately a lot of rumors and lies are being said but no worries god is with me and my brother @ynw.bortlen and we want y'all to remember it’s a ynw Family I love you @ynwsakchaser1 and @ynwjuvy #freeus
Prior to his incarceration, songs such as “Murder on My Mind” and “Mind on My Murder” had gained traction making their way in the Billboard Hot 100 and gaining RIAA certifications in a matter of months. Speculations made people believe that the songs were related to the murders, however, they were soon put to rest due to the time of the recordings being almost two years prior to the shootings.
After spending months incarcerated, on November 22, 2019, he released his debut studio album, Melly vs. Melvin featuring his 9lokkNine-assisted “223’s”.
After the rise of COVID-19 disease in 2020, on April 3, Melly had tested positive for the virus while awaiting trial. After being infected, Melly’s lawyers tried to play this to his advantage and requested a medical release as conditions can worsen in the jail environment. Melly was denied release on April 17 and conditions have been said to worsen since.
After the release of fellow Floridian rapper Kodak Black, Melly’s team had taken advantage and released “Thugged Out” to keep Melly’s name alive in the industry. They carried on releasing singles throughout the year with artists such as Queen Naija and Hotboii.
Again, while still awaiting trial, on August 13, 2021, he released his sophomore studio album, Just A Matter of Slime, featuring his highly anticipated Lil Uzi Vert-assisted “Mind of Melvin”.
After prosecutors had claimed they had a confession of Melly admitting to the murders, on November 1, Melly’s lawyers came out and denied the claims and said that Melly was just rapping a song titled “4:30 AM” by Kevin Gates. Soon after, on November 30, Melly’s trial had been set for March 7, 2022. - TippleTripple123
Suicidal
YNW Melly Lyrics
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And lately, I've been feeling suicidal
Your love is suicidal
I thought that we were meant to be
You took my heart and made it bleed
I gave you all my ecstasy
I know you'll be the death of me (Keep it Z3N)
Felt like you took my soul from me
You gave me all your ecstasy
I thought that we were meant to be
Your love is suicidal
For me, your love is suicidal
To me your love is suicidal
To me your love is suicidal
I'm sippin' Hennessy (ooh)
I'm sippin' Hennessy (ooh)
I don't want to lose my conscience
Drinkin' all this Hennessy
Baby, you took control of me
And I got too many enemies
I knew you wanted to fuck him 'cause I couldn't tell
Check my bag, now I'm, now I'm in my bag, yeah
You did me bad, you did me bad
But I said, "Fuck it" and I ran up my bag, yeah
I'm in my bag, I'm in my bag now
But you didn't even put it all on the line
For me, no, oh, I'm sorry
This is the end of us, it's crazy 'cause my heart is dangerous
Felt like you took my soul from me
Like the devil got a hold on me
Everybody wishin' bad on me
Everybody wishin' bad on me
You taught a lesson to me that I had to learn
And I'm so sorry 'cause you let our bridges burn
I said, "I loved you" and I wish I never did
I swear to God, I swear to God, you stupid bitch
I thought that we were meant to be
You took my heart and made it bleed
I gave you all my ecstasy
I know you'll be the death of me
Left lipstick on my Hennessy
Felt like you took my soul from me
No way, I gave you all my ecstasy
I thought that you were meant for me
I know you'll be the death of me
Thought we were for eternity
You fucked me up, both physically
And mentally, I can't believe
I'm sippin' Hennessy (ooh)
I'm sippin' Hennessy (ooh)
I'm sippin' Hennessy (ooh)
I'm sippin' Hennessy (ooh)
Your love is suicidal
For me, your love is suicidal
To me your love is suicidal
To me your love is suicidal
You taught a lesson to me that I had to learn
And I'm so sorry 'cause you let our bridges burn
I said, "I loved you" and I wish I never did
I swear to God, I swear to God, you stupid bitch
The lyrics of YNW Melly's song Suicidal express a deep sense of despair and sadness. The song centers around a toxic relationship that has left the singer feeling suicidal. The chorus, "Suicidal, your love is suicidal, and lately, I've been feeling suicidal; your love is suicidal," repeats throughout the song, highlighting the destructive nature of the relationship. In the verses, Melly describes how he gave everything to this person but was left with nothing in return, feeling as though his heart was ripped apart. He also talks about how he tried to escape the pain and hurt by drinking Hennessy, but it only made things worse.
The verse "you took control of me, and I got too many enemies" suggests that the partner may have been manipulative and controlling, causing conflicts with those close to Melly. The lines "You taught a lesson to me that I had to learn, and I'm so sorry 'cause you let our bridges burn" speaks to the idea that sometimes, it takes a painful experience to learn a valuable lesson. The singer expresses regret for being with this person and wishes that he had never loved them.
The overall message of the song is that love can be dangerous and self-destructive. However, it's important to learn from experiences, even the painful ones, to grow and move forward.
Line by Line Meaning
Suicidal, your love is suicidal
The love that you give is so intense and destructive that it is like committing suicide.
And lately, I've been feeling suicidal
Your love has made me feel overwhelmed, helpless, and depressed to the point that I feel like ending my life.
Your love is suicidal
You have the power to bring me to my emotional breaking point and to hurt me deeply.
I thought that we were meant to be
I believed that our relationship was destined to last forever and that we were perfect for each other.
You took my heart and made it bleed
You caused me a lot of pain and heartbreak, and it feels like you have damaged me irreparably.
I gave you all my ecstasy
I gave you all my happiness and joy, and now it feels like I have nothing left.
I know you'll be the death of me (Keep it Z3N)
I am aware that being with you is dangerous and could lead to my downfall or even death.
Left lipstick on my Hennessy
You left your mark on everything that I hold dear and now I can't escape your presence.
Felt like you took my soul from me
You have stripped me of my identity, purpose, and hope for the future.
You gave me all your ecstasy
You gave me all your happiness and joy, only to take it away and leave me with nothing.
Your love is suicidal
Your love is so intense and destructive that it could lead to my emotional and physical demise.
I'm sippin' Hennessy (ooh)
I am numbing my pain and trying to forget about you by drinking alcohol.
I don't want to lose my conscience
I don't want to lose touch with reality and do something that I regret because of my emotional pain.
Drinkin' all this Hennessy
But I am still unable to escape my emotions and the pain that you have caused me.
Baby, you took control of me
You have manipulated and controlled me to the point where I can't even think for myself anymore.
And I got too many enemies
Because of the way that you have treated me, I have a lot of people who wish me harm and want to see me fail.
I knew you wanted to fuck him 'cause I could just tell
I suspected that you were cheating on me with someone else, and now it feels like my worst fears have come true.
Check my bag, now I'm, now I'm in my bag, yeah
I am now focused on accumulating wealth and success to prove myself after everything that you have put me through.
You did me bad, you did me bad
You have hurt me deeply and caused me a lot of pain and suffering.
But I said, "Fuck it" and I ran up my bag, yeah
But I have decided to use my pain as motivation to achieve my goals and become successful, even if you don't believe in me.
I'm in my bag, I'm in my bag now
I am now focused on accumulating wealth and success to prove myself after everything that you have put me through.
But you din't even put it all on the line
You did not show the same level of commitment and dedication to our relationship that I did.
For me, no, oh, I'm sorry
You did not prioritize me or treat me with the respect and love that I deserved, and it hurts me deeply.
This is the end of us, it's crazy 'cause my heart is dangerous
Our relationship is over and it feels like my emotions and feelings are out of control and could hurt me or others.
Like the devil got a hold on me
It feels like I am possessed by negative and destructive emotions that are beyond my control.
Everybody wishin' bad on me
Because of our failed relationship and the way that you treated me, it feels like everyone around me wants to see me fail and suffer.
You taught a lesson to me that I had to learn
Through this failed relationship, I have learned important lessons about love, trust, and respect that will help me in the future.
And I'm so sorry 'cause you let our bridges burn
Our relationship is over and there is no going back, and I regret the way that things ended between us.
I said, "I loved you" and I wish I never did
I regret ever telling you that I loved you because it feels like the love that I gave you was not reciprocated or appreciated.
I swear to God, I swear to God, you stupid bitch
I am angry and frustrated with you for the way that you treated me and caused me so much pain and suffering.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Jamell Demons, Juan Guerrieri Maril
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@kingsparta2584
I lost my brother 2 months ago and this is my brother favorite song and play this song every time for him REST IN PEACE BOE🕊🕊
@zeeonbeat3429
🕊️🕊️
@vulturewings6428
Rip
@sebastianzimmerhackl3686
my brother died 2005 in an accident (no suicide) — still hurts so much .,,
@SnehaVarmaStyle
🕊🕊
@karlacardenas7472
REST IN PEACE FOR YOUR BROTHER
@swervetounchi822
Did anyone else just feel like listening to this rn
@islahjr7890
Yha
@therapcommittee
Me
@cyrux4004
yeah while eating